Sa kaso ko, kahit sobrang sakit, andun na agad yung acceptance, kasi alam ko, no matter how it ended, he loved me too. And even if I try to remember the endless arguments, the hurtful words, the betrayal, walang pumapasok sa isip ko kundi yung mga masasayang alaala.
Bigla, naalala ko nung nag-beach kami. Pagdating namin sa resort, yung cottage na nabigay sa amin was adjacent to a bigger one na may mga lalakeng nag-iinuman. Eversince, he loved to imagine that another man is watching while he’s fucking me. Libog na libog siya dun. So what he did was placed the bottles of beer at the veranda. Umupo lang kami dun. Maya-maya lang, pinatayo niya ako at isinandal sa may wall. Ipinatong niya ang isang binti ko sa may upuan, lumuhod siya sa harapan ko, at dun sa veranda, kinain niya ako habang nakatayo ako at anytime puedeng matanaw ng mga guests sa kabilang cottage. He was lapping at me like a thirsty pup. Nanginginig ang legs ko sa sarap habang kinakain niya ako and all I can do at that moment was to moan endlessly. Halos hindi na rin siya makahinga sa diin ng pagkakahawak ko sa ulo niya na nasa pagitan ng mga hita ko. And he didn’t stop until I came.
After that, we agreed to eat at the resto of the resort. Maganda kasi yung view from the terrace. Nauna na siya dun to order our food while I freshen up. After a few minutes, tinawagan niya ako, and told me not to change my dress anymore pero tanggalin ko daw ang bra ko. Since may built in bra naman siya, I did what I was told. Pagdating ko sa resto, nasa terrace siya. Walang ibang tao dun except a few maintenance guys na nasa far side at parang may tsini-check sa hindi ko alam kung koneksyon ba ng water pump or kuryente. There were three guys, napansin ko lang, yung pinaka-matangkad dun, at parang yung in-charge was good looking. Nung umaakyat ako sa short flight of stairs, napalingon sila sa akin, and the guy whom I noticed actually did a double take. Yung parang napalingon lang siya kasi nakita sa peripheral vision niya na may paparating, then he suddenly looked up again and gave me another lingering look. Napansin ko napatitig siya sa may cleavage ko. Malalim kasi talaga ang neckline nung maxi dress na suot ko nun. Pag-upo ko natawa ako nung sabihin ni ex na nalilibugan na naman siya sa akin just by knowing na may ibang lalake na tumitingin sa akin at sa katawan ko.
So while we were having our brunch, si maintenance guy has passed infront of us twice, in both instances sneaking glances at me. Napangiti ako nung nahuli niyang nakatingin ako sa kanya habang tinitingnan niya ang dibdib ko, and he gave that awkward almost shy smile. Parang batang nahuling naninilip. Pagkakain namin, we went back to our cottage at dun, with our windows open he fucked me like crazy. Maingay kami pareho nun, and I know kung titigil sa kantahan at tawanan yung mga lalake sa kabilang cottage, they would hear us.
Hawak niya ang dalawang binti ko nakataas sa ere habang kinakain na naman niya ako at pinanggigigilan ang clits ko. Gigil na gigil siya and just a few more strokes of his tongue and I came hard again. Habang nilalabasan pa ako, he fucked me so hard na halos tumama na ang ulo ko sa headboard.
Madiin at matagal ang mga bayo niya habang walang tigil akong hinahalikan sa labi, sa leeg, sa tenga at nilalamas ang mga suso ko. Maya-maya pa, ramdam kong mas bumilis pa at dumiin ang pagbayo niya sa akin. Umuungol na siya ng malakas, repeatedly saying “walang kasing sarap ang puke mo hon, ang sarap mo talaga hon, ayan na ako, ayan na ako hon!” And he collapsed beside me, kissing my forehead then saying “I love you hon. Inggit na inggit sigurado yung mga yun sa akin nakita nila how hot you are.”
Nobody has ever made me feel more confident of my body than him. He made me feel that it’s okay to be sexy, to look sexy and feel sexy. Kahit feeling ko pa rin, I wasn’t. Still, those naughty moments, yung pagiging tease was exciting. And even if we’ve come to an end, I would always look back at the memories and still be grateful that once in my life, another man has appreciated the way I am as a woman. #