I dont really know my biological father. I have stepdad but we’re not close and I grew up to my Lola who passed a way when Im 16. Siya yung bumuhay and nagpa- aral sakin until I graduated highschool. When she died I have to live in our house alone for few weeks bago biglang sumulpot yung auntie kong mahadera. Sobrang maldita niya and hindi sila close ni lola. Sobrang kuripot niya, never siyang nagpadala ng pera sa lola ko, and almost 2 years siyang di nagparamdam not until I drop the news, my mother somehow gave us money or things ( they were living abroad). Half Spanish kasi yung stepdad ko so sa spain sila nakatira. Mas malaki yung income nya since meron silang milk farm dun. Back to my auntie Jody. I called her tita actually. shes 43 and the bunso, my mom Anna 49 is the second while uncle Kris is 56. Back to the story. So yes my tita Jody decided that she has the rights to my Lola’s house and she’s the one who handles important documents thats why she is in charge. My life because so dramatic because of her. May mga anak siya pero 2 lang yung sinama niya sa bahay for me to be a babysitter. Para daw may silbi naman ako since siya na yung magpapakain sakin like wtf. but I dont have a choice I was only 18. My tita is a business owner with car 4 rentals yung asawa niya naman is seaman and hindi ko na matandaan yung itsura nun since hindi siya sumasama pag may visit si tita dito. Lola doesn’t like him too.
two months after they started living here and me babysitting my cousin Jane, 4 and Jun, 6. Tita drops the news that I didn’t know would be part of my deep sinful pleasure that I would take to my grave.
” Casha, dumating na si tito Greg mo kahapon pa. Uuwi muna kami dun and after two weeks babalik kami dito nila jun with tito Greg mo na. May 3 months vacation siya so Aayusin namin together yung loan problems and yung titulo dito. Make sure na pagbalik namin malinis dito and no friends specially boys allowed here. I will know everything since titignan tignan ka ni inang (kapit-bahay and friend ni lola). Mamayang hapon yung alis namin. after lunch paliguan muna sila”
she said while taking some maleta from storage to upstairs.
“Sige ‘ta” I say while nililikpit ko na yung toys nila since mag 11 na and I magluluto pa ko.
Few hours passsed and…
“Babye ate” sabi nila while waiving inside the car. and I was left alone again. I realized na summer na pala next month so it means vacation ko na din. I just go inside and take a nap.
days passed and tumatawag tawag naman si tita just to REMIND me of her rules. busy ako sa school matter so I dont really care what she says. ang weird kasi parang ang gwapo ng boses nung nasa background voice but I doubt it. Feel ko he will be like other tito who has big tummy, tan skin in a white shirt and a 4 pocket short.
weeks passed and I was wrong. Nung bumalik sila dito ang unang lumabas sa car is si tito greg and natulala talaga ko. ang tangkad niya, hanggang dibdib niya lang ako and I’m 5’5. naka fit siya na dark blue polo and shades. yung aura niya is like a pilot, you feel the vibes?. dont get me wrong maganda naman yung tita ko, bungangera and matipid lang talaga. hindi siya masyadong gwapo pero ang lakas ng dating niya. ang neat and clean niya sa hair style niyang army cut. I was correct when I say he’s tan.
“Casha! tulungan mo nga si tito greg mong buhatin yung gamit, kakargahin ko si jane nakatulog na!”
agad akong pumunta sa car para kunin yung mga bags ng bata and take it to their rooms. pabalik na ko ng kotse para kunin yung dalawang bag ni tita when he says ” Ako na kukuha nung natirang bags dun” sabi niya sabay labas. I dunno why but his voice makes me think sinfully. I admit that day I already has a crush on him.
weeks past and okay naman kami. madalas lang nag-aaway sina tita kasi sobrang kuripot niya and kailangan nilang gumastos talaga when it comes to money pero ang daming excuses ni tita that leads to arguments and the worst thing is that sanay na sanay na yung mga bata. One night habang nasa kitchen ako, kumakain ako while reviewing, bumaba si tito greg. I remembered di pala siya kumain ng dinner kasi nag- away sila ni tita so I ask him.
“Tito Greg, gusto mo kumain?” while offering him fruit salad. He just nod and take a sit while on his phone. I placed the salad in front of him while doing my things. We eat in silents when he suddenly asked me
“Casha, may bunigay ba sayo si tita mong 20 thousand?” I was shocked, sobrang seryoso niya nung tinanong niya ko.
“Wala ‘to. 8k a month lang yung allowance ko kay tita” I said while looking at him confused.
“I knew it! sabi ko sa tita mo bigyan ka ng 20 thousand since ikaw naman yung nag-aalaga kina jun this past few months. Wait me here” bumalik siyang may hawak na pera
and inabot nya sakin.
“Itago mo na yan. dont tell your tita I gave you that” sabay akyat ulit sa taas. Since nawalan na ko ng mood mag-aral I go to my bed na din. I was curious kung magkano yung inabot sakin ni tito so I count and its been a while since nagkaroon ako ng gantong pera its 45 thousand!” i was so happy. sakto I needed some books pa naman.
I make breakfast with a good mood.
few days passed and napansin kong mas close ko si tito greg kesa kay tita. He help me with chores. Siya yung nagluluto sa gabi, naglalaba ng damit nila ni tita while ako sa mga kids, and tinuruan niya na matulog yung mga bata pag hapon since madalas nakina inang sila kasi may pasok ako and si tita andami niyang lakad with her childhood friends.
vacation day comes for me!
first day ko, but sad to say kailangan kong tumulong magluto kay tita kasi may mini reunion sila tonight dito. Umalid si tito greg para bumili ng cases of beer.
night comes and I was tired pero nagbabantay pa din ako kina jane and jun until I realized I fall a sleep. tita woke me up at 11 pm para bumalik na sa kwarto ko. she looks so wasted and smells vomit.
Bumalik ako sa kwarto ko and I decided to take a to freshen up.
It was midnight when I decide bumaba para kumain ng Ice cream.
I saw tito greg is trying to clean their mess sa sala so I help him. Hindi niya ko napansin kasi nakatalikod siya and nilalabas niya yung mga bote ng alak, ako naman nagstart sa kitchen. afer I cleaned the counter kumuha na ko ng ice cream, pabalik na sana ko pag liko ko sa stair nagkabungguan kami and topless na siya. medyo nalagyan siya ng ice cream sa dipdip niya kaya I automatically response na punasan yun ng kamay ko. we were both shocked napatingala ako sa kaniya and I see him smirk sabay punas niya sa baba ko ng ice cream… and he lick his thumb sabay punta sa kitchen.
‘sexy’
that night hindi ako totally nakatulog kasi nararamdaman ko pa din yung dibdib niya. he has a hard chest pero wala siyang abs but then he has a fit body for 45 years old. I remember habit niya pala every morning is push up.
since that night I know I looked at him differently… naging mas sweet na din siya like he touches me, my neck, madalas na din siyang nakikipaglaro sa mga bata and we ended up tickling and mocking each other. He always teases me kahit nandyan si tita, he would eat ice cream na nakatingin sakin playfully, i dont why but I find it so sexy. There was a parcel na dumating and since nasa baba si tito greg siya na yung nagreceive, nakagawian na ng nila jane na sila yung nagbubukas ng mga parcel so so they did open it. Wala akong paki not until lumapit ako at kinuga ko yung ibang items suddenly inabot ni tito Greg yung shaving cream na inorder ko for my arm pit.
“Nag-gaganito ka na pala” pang -asar niya sakin at first di ko nagets until tumitig siya paharap habang naka upo sa sofa at nakatayo ako. Nagulat ako and nahiya. inirapan ko nalang siya sabay baling kina jane.
“Jane tara na akyat na. half bath na.” I take both of them upstairs.
Tumingin ako sa labas and I saw tita on the phone.
As dinner started, nag- uusap nanaman sina tita and we know na away yung ending thats why after eating inakyat ko agad sila sa rooms nila and open the tv. after almost an hr narinig kong umalis yung kotse ni tito greg sabay ang lakas ng pagsara ni tita ng pinto.
Nasa hallway palang si tita narirnig ko na yung boses niya… bumukas yung pinto nagulat kami.
“Casha patayin mo yung TV! Matulog na kayo! bumalik ka na sa kwarto mo!” sabay tulak niya sakin, nagreklamo si jun nung kinuha yung tablet niya kaya napalo siya ni tita.
dumeretsyo ako sa kwarto ko and I looked at the clock. 7pm palang pala. I take a bath. tumingin ako sa bintana, umaambon pala wala pa di si tito greg, feeling ko uminom yun sa kumpare niya. 9pm, I read a book and fall asleep. Nagising ako mga bandang 2 am malakas yung ulan, naalala ko may chocolate coffee pala kami so bumaba ako and make one, kumuha na rin ako ng biscuits hindi pala sinara ni tita yung nga curtain kaya lumapit ako at sinara yung bandang garage na ko nakita ki si tito Greg nasa loob ng kotse nya, kumuha ako ng payong at kinatok ko siya, nagising naman siya agad. akala niya ako si tita hinampas niya yung bintana kaya medyo napasigaw ako. binuksan naman niya yung pinto and say sorry.
“Pasok ka na ‘to” sabi ko
“No. Ayoko. Pasok ka na dun ang lakas ng ulan!” sabi niya habang lumilipat sa likod ng kotse.
Lasing nga siya sobra.
“May chocolate coffee ako dun gusto mo din?”
“Sigi lang dalhin mo dito” pumasok ako para timplahan siya ng kanya. Basa na pala ko konti, pansin ko.
Binigay ko na yung kanya at pumasok na rin para mag snacks. Nag scroll ako sa fb ng mag message si tito greg.
Him: How old r u again
Me: 18
him: Really?! I thought your 20’s na haha”
Me: Thanks to Foreigner blood!
Him: is your father spanish too?
Me: Nope. Canadian.
kala ko tapos na. until he asked me to come to his car. I finish my food first then pumunta na ko dun para kunin yung cup. sa kabila niya pa ko pinadaan, akala ko nahihilo lang siya and since nasa right part siya nakapwesto aabot niya nalang sana yung baso. He then opens the back door inabot ko yung kamay ko sabay hinila niya ko papasok. pinatay niya yung ilaw sa loob. Natakot ako kasi parang galit siya, iniisip ko baka sakin mabuhos yung galit niya since lasing siya but then I was wrong. He opened up to me their personal problem.
“Yung tita mo sobrang bossy. She acted as if ang mighty niya, and you know that. Do you know what’s her plan? tell this to your mom! May balak yung tita Jody mo kunin yung lupa nilang magkakapatid and kaya pala di niya ko sinasama recently is because may kausap na siya na buyer ng bahay nyo. Ayokong mangialam totally but iniisip ko kay ni uncle mo! Ikaw wala kang full support financially and minor ka pa pala, yung uncle mo may cancer you guys need money tapos yung tita mo gusto akuin tong bahay nyo. Di naman ako nagkulang sa kanya. Halos lahat ng pera nasa kanya na! yung mga bata imbes na may yaya ikaw na lang pinag- alaga. What Im saying here is that kaya galit sakin yung lola mo kasi akala niya hindi ko nabibigyan ng magandang buhay yung tita mo, kala niya– urgh!” sabay sipa nya sa front sit.
” Yung lola mo may iniwan na pera para sayo, meron ka palang educational fund but your tita manipulated it! I just hate it hindi lang niya yan ginawa sayo, sakin din, kaya pala kailangan niya ng malaking pera is because naiingit siy…