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Kakagising ko lang. Wala ko sa wisyo amp*ta. Honestly don’t know how to start. Scroll phone, tingin sa blank page ng laptop, browse facebook, tingin sa FSS, nakatulala, tingin sa pictures. Awesooooommmeeeesssst thing I had for my entire sex life.
Eto na yun e. Too excited that I woke up earlier than my alarm clock. Partida, 3 hours lang tulog. Kala ko nga di na matutuloy. Pero..
(*text message )On my way.. See you in a bit..
OMG. This is really is it is it. Haha. Awesome. Nakahanda na yung damit. Checkered buttoned blouse, fitted jeans and chucks and my Finn and Jake of adventure time reversible backpack.. I think I look okay. Yeah. I look fine. Palabas ng bahay, all smiles. Kabado, excited. I can’t believe today’s the day. Put my earphones on. Todo ang volume. In Due Time by KSE.
(*text message) Malapit na ko W*********.
Seriously? That was like 15 minutes ago since the last text. Kala ko malayo siya. Dali dali. Nag special trike na lang din ako.
(*text message) Andito na ko. Sa harap ng entrance lang.
I’m getting closer and closer. Man. Ano ba tong pinasok ko. Pero di pwede magbackout. Ginusto ko din to.
Taddaa! I’m here. Look to the left and right. Asan kaya yun. Sobrang bagal pa maglakad. Parang lilitisin lang. haha.
Boom. There he is, there’s my Tony Stark. He smiled agad. He looks good. Really. Nagyoyosi. Fuck. Nanginginig kamay ko. Not that he is a stranger, it’s because of the deed that we’re gonna do, and this is the FIRST TIME ever that I’m gonna meet a complete stranger.
Oops. Awkward ah. Looking at my palms. Nakupu. Pale and cold. Haha.
“Hey youu.” Bungad ko sakanya. He smiled. Napatingin ako sa book na dala niya. “Mag aapply pala ha.”
“Penge yosi.”
“You smoke westpoint?” he asked.
“Sige lang bahala na.” I inhaled deeply.
“Uhh, So yeah. 10am pa ang bukas nito. Olats naman. San tayo bili booze? Snacks? Do you want to eat?
Meron ba dito 7/11?”
I made an IDK sign. He’s staring at me. Smiling like fuck. Haha
“Bakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit??” I asked.
“Wala. Ikaw bakiiit??”
“Wala..” Silence.
“Hanap kaya tayo ng tindahan. Baka meron.” I suggested.
“Sige tara. Aww ayun oh. May 7-11” Bilis mata ah. Siguro nasa moderate anxiety na ako sa lagay na to. Haha. Wala na kasi akong makita. Center focus na lang.
We never wasted time. Punta agad sa store, bili booze, 1.5 liter na Gatorade and 1pack ng yosi.
“So papano tayo sasakay?” He asked.
“Eh di trike.”
“This is kinda awkward. Tara dun tayo sa gilid” He muttered. “Ano sasabihin ko sa trike?”
“Haha. Eh di kung san tayo pupunta. Ays lang yan! Wag mo muna ako kakausapin. Will put my earphones on. Pagdating na dun mo na ako kausapin.”
Siguro inisip niya na baka mahassle ako. Walk in e. But nah. I really don’t care. Fuck, if he only knew how much I wanted him at right this very moment.
“You really sure you wanna do this? Pwede kapa magback out” He asked me. Sa tricy. All smiles.
“Ano kaba. Andito na tayo, tara naa.” While at the trike, I grabbed his shades. Pang paswabe lang.
Pumasok kami sa pulang dilaw na building. Alright. May kasabay kami ah. Haha. Medyo natagalan nga kami dun, siya kung ano ano binubutingting..Adik talaga. Man, what’s taking this thing so long. Siguro 10 minutes din. Sabi ko nga follow up. Yun oh. Buti naman. Dyahe kayang nakatambay sa lobby.
Fancy. The elevator “talks.”
“Ohhhh. Hi Jarvis.” I smiled. He did too.
Room 218. . Pakiramdaman. He opened the booze. Well good, something to calm down the awkward moment. So yun. He took off his pants, later on, I did. Exchanged convos muna. Talk about music and all. Showed him some music videos, covers on youtube and boozing. Skin to skin contact muna ang drama. Nung wala ng mapagusapan at ubos na beer niya, humiga siya. Mine’s full. Alright. I was looking at him, studying his face. I wonder why he picked me. All I can describe about myself is that I’m uhh, weird. I like to be alone, I always wanted to be alone, mas masaya pa nga ako sa ganun. My social life? Internet. I’m sorta happy go lucky kid. I never wanted to have an intimate relationship with everyone. Yes I get jealous when I see couples who are so sweet, but meeehh. Whatever.
“Diba dapat kanina, kiss ang greeting ko sayo?” he broke the silence.
“Ay oo nga. But I think now’s the right time to do it.” I chuckled. Eto na to. Start na ng umaatikabong labanan. I turned towards him, my face getting closer as I hungrily touched my lips to his. We kissed gently, with lots of tongue on it.
“I almost forgot how to kiss. I haven’t kissed someone for like forever.”
He just smiled and didn’t mind what I said. He continued to kiss me. I looked for the switch of the lights to turn it off. Man I’m getting hot. Well, we both are. I was on his top. I was grinding myself on his thing. The grunts and heavy breathing, oh what a turn on. Di ko na alam kung saan saan napupunta ang kamay niya. Bilis niya ata ma unbutton ng damit ko. I felt his hands on my back as he was trying to unlock my bra. We never broke the kiss as we changed position, him on my top.. It (hands) was travelling on my back. Mine’s just on his nape. Pulling him closer to my body. Nakakawet hard-on niya. I told myself this is real. Finally I can touch and feel it. His face, his scent, his voice, so intoxicating I just can’t stop. Sa sobrang galaw namin, natabig na pati yung phone sa room. Haha. I reached for it saka binalik sa dating ayos. Ni hindi ako bumitaw sakanya. This is how I craved for him. Nakakaulol ang ganito. Nauulol na ako sa kanya. He removed my blouse leaving my panties on. I removed his shirt in return. Man, nanggigil na ako. Halatadong atat na atat nga ako sakanya. Well I know that pleased him.
“I wanna see your animal side, Let it all out..” This song keeps on playing and playing in my head as we continued to kiss.
“So put the “D” in dirt now baby. Let’s get you wasted an…