I have enumerated my basic qualities just to give you some prominent reasons why I am sharing my experience and of course to give you a glimpse about my looks. Kasi sabi nang ibang mga kabaro ko.. Pang-kama lang daw ang ganda ko which is pinagkikibit-balikat ko lang. Ok lang atleast kahit papaano eh may ganda. This is my first entry here in this site, I was just an avid reader..never a write especially this kind of genre.. Ayoko ma-judge but then why not give it a try? After all, we are all wearing a mask here… hidden by different letters.
Let’s start with Mon. My boyfriend.
I met Mon thru a common friend. Actually nakuha niya mula sa Ate ko ang number ko. Hindi ko alam ang saktong nangyari pero what I can just remember was that we were suddenly texting each other. He was 24 that time and I was 10 years younger than him..NBSB-noob-in-dating-opposite-sex samakatwid.. Virgin. Nang panahon yun usong-uso ang pakikipagtextmates,clans, Gms.. me? I went with the flow.
One day inaya nya ko makipagkita. First attempt no was rejected because he was asking me in the middle of the night .. Close to 12 midnight. Inuman daw. I declined and said no since hindi rin ako palainom. The second he asked me out, pumayag na ako… sa Megamall. I can still remember his looks. He was wearing blue shirt na parang hanger sa kanya. Moreno, chinito and cute. Plus hindi sya athletic. He had this Korean-type of body. Lean. Pero konti lang muscles. Peru I was a bit turned off because he was acting rather walk like a gangster and feeling close. During the duration of our ‘meeting’ he was putting his arms over mine and leaning on me.
“Ang bilis bilis mo ha? ” sabi ko habang kumakawala ako sa akbay nya.
Wala naman sya ginawa kundi ngumiti at kumamot ng ulo.
Its started from there, niligawan niya ako, I didn’t have plans in having a boyfriend kaya lang yung nanay ko pressure. Bakit daw wala akong boyfriend.
Lumipas ang ilang buwan, naging kami at dumating sa punto na kailangan kong patunayan na mahal ko sya. Narindi din ako sa mga pahaging nyang ‘lahat nang naging girlfriend ko..natikman ko”. I was a virgin and tigas-tanggi ako sa mga ganun bagay. Before nakukuntento na sya sa petting lang.
Ngunit nang araw na un, inaya nya akong lumabas at pumunta kami sa isang bahay nila na walang nakatira.
“Punta tayo, Batasan. Gusto ko uminom. Samahan mo ko.”
Since I was naive at walang idea sa kasabihang “kapag may alak, may balak”, I went with him. Lumiban pa ako sa klase para lang samahan siya.
Papadilim na nang marating namin ang lugar. Sa Northview. Bumili siya ng dalawang mucho na Redhorse, pumuwesto kami sa maluwag na sala, tinagayan niya ako at pinainom. Nagsalang din siya ng movie, it was a film titled Disturbia, starring Shia LaBeouf.
Tumagay kami nang tumagay kahit hindi ako sanay. Hindi nagtagal nakaramdam ako ng hilo at pamamanhid. . Nabibingi ako sa lakas ng tibok ng puso ko, hindi ko alam kung dahil sa alak o dahil sa posibleng mangyari. Unti-unti na rin siyang lumapit sa akin. He started caressing my shoulders, my head, my back..everything.. and I could not do anything about it. Pakiramdam ko noon, paralisado ang aking buong katawan, mistulang lantang gulay.
He started kissing me…my cheeks, my nose, my jawline, neck, shoulders, collarbone and all I could do was moan…out of protest. Gulong gulo isipan ko. Alam ko na kung ano ang mangyayari and I was there feeling trapped, betrayed and helpless.
He started to take off my pants. Unbuttoning it and slowly letting it fall down unto my feet. I even heard the ‘thump’ sound that my belt has made. Nagugulumihanan pa rin ang isip ko.
These were the thoughts running on my mind.. ‘Hindi pa ako ready..Paano na yung sex-after-marriage Principle?, Kabilang na ako sa milyong kabataang involved sa pre-marital sex’.
It’s funny because that time, dahan-dahan niya na akong inihihiga sa sofa. Hindi na rin niya tinangkang hubarin ang aking blouse, he unbuckled his belt and pulled out a red condom.
A strawberry aroma filled my nostrils the moment he opened it. He slowly covered his shaft with the condom. Parang mali pa nga yung size na nakuha niya kasi maluwang. I couldn’t feel anything but fear and hesitation. Hinalikan niya ako, soft and gentle, attempting to sooth me, erase my inhibitions. Naamoy ko ang pinaghalong alak at yosi sa kaniyang mainit na hininga. Hingal na hin…