Alex is the first boy I met in RPW. He is kind, confident and may pagka naughty. We decided to make the relationship this year kahit na LDR, him living in the Metro and all. We decided to meet kasi it’s his birthday and gusto namin itong i-celebrate together. This will be the first time we will see each other for real.
Btw, I’m Bianca, 19 and I’ve never been touched… hihihi.
I’ve spent most of my life in the south with my conservative Mom and 2 overly protective older brothers who bosses me around since dad is usually out of the country for work. To be honest, mahiyain ako sa boys since I’ve studied in an exclusive all girls catholic school ALL MY LIFE. That is, until I discovered Role Player World or RPW sa facebook three years ago.
I want this day to be memorable for the two of us and I want Alex to feel proud I’m his gf. So, since I’m feeling kinda naughty, ung naisip ko na OOTD is my favorite maong skirt and sando na crop top with cardigan on top.
I decided to leave my car in a mall and took a van to Mandaluyong so that I can take my time fighting my nervousness. I was so nervous that I can hear my heart pounding non-stop as I neared our meeting place. Then, I saw him. Ang pogi nya in real life. I’m sure he can feel the trembling of my hand as he held them in his.
Our first date was indeed memorable. And it became for me, a day of firsts. First holding hands – check. First hug/ akbay – check. First kiss – check.
It’s just that, the things that Alex made me experience, they were different from how I expect things to be. Like when we held hands, ang likot ng daliri nya. Its sort of playing with the soft part of my palm. When he makes akbay, his hands keeps on rubbing my arm with some pisil from time to time. There are times when he runs his fingers over the exposed skin of my breast giving me goosebumps. Ang likot talaga ng kamay nya. And when we kissed, his lips keeps on nibbling on mine.
All these things made me feel nervous and excited at the same time. I constantly have this funny feeling in my tummy that does not go away. It’s like maiihi ako anytime.
I really don’t want the day to end, pero hangang 9PM lang ang paalam ko kay mom for the school project. Ayaw kong masira ang tiwala ni mom. I really want to see Alex again, so I need to be home by 9PM.
We walked slowly towards the terminal. Feel ko ang paghigpit ng hawak ni Alex sakin, like he doesn’t want to let go.
I must be red from all the blushing. I have a feeling that everyone is looking at us. Is this really me? Hindi ako sanay.
Alex was so sweet. We stopped beside the door of the van and he gave me the sweetest kiss. Then, nagulat ako nang bigla nyang kabigin ang ulo ko towards his. I felt his lips pressed on mine. I can feel the pressure of his tongue as it pushes against my lips. It keeps on pushing until I opened my lips to let him in. I was scared. I was excited. I can’t help but close my eyes.
The funny feeling in my tummy returned. Ang init bigla. “Is this what love feels like?”, I thought.
As the kiss ends, finally, I can breathe again.
“Stay please”, mahinang bulong sakin ni Alex. However, I really need to go so he reluctantly helps me into the van.
The remaining seats were in the 2nd row sa back ng van. Need ko yumuko papasok since the ceiling is kinda low. As I head towards my seat, I noticed the guy who was sitting directly behind the vacant seat. He looks very familiar, however, i noticed that he was looking at my body, my chest to be specific. I looked down and kita pala ang cleavage ko. Normally, I would cover up and bibigyan sya ng isang matinding simangot, pero for some reason, I feel brave and I feel confident. When he looked up and gave me a smile, I held his stare and smiled back before sitting down and looking for my Alex outside the window.
As we look at each other thru the window, miss ko na si Alex already. Miss ko the caress and the hidden touches. I miss his lips. I started to get the funny feeling in my tummy that I had when we were together. Ang init. I feel love.
As the van leaves the terminal, I soak in the darkness and the feeling of the cold coming from the AC. I think about pano kami nag holding hands while walking. Of his body pressed against mine as we hug. Of his lips nibling on my lips. And I can’t help but think that I’m going crazy. The funny feeling in…