Year 2017, when I was so vulnerable and felt like I am such a mess, God gave me this boy who helped me get over and made my world go round again. We started as friends, and of course just like other friendships, ours went into difficulties as well. Nagaaway, nagtatampuhan. But at the end of the day, we always chose to fix things. Pero hindi talaga maiiwasang merong mahulog.. Na isa .. And i fell inlove with that guy. I loved him everyday. His eyes, lips, how he laugh, how he speaks.. His sense of humour that I really adore. Mga simpleng salita na buong katawan ko kinikilig. The way he cares for me.. Nakakalungkot lang kasi hindi nya ako mahal….noon…
As time flies by, madaming memories na nabuo. Madaming matatamis na sandali na pinagsaluhan. Halos hindi nga kame nagaaway eh. Magkatampuhan man, which is normal, pero never namin natiis ang isa’t isa. He actually doesn’t want a commitment. Kasi alam nya masasaktan lang ako. Hindi nya maibibigay yung mga bagay na kailangan ko. At higit sa lahat, hindi nya kayang ibigay yung puso nya sa akin. Coz it’s already taken. I know, and I feel that he loved me indeed. Hindi lang siguro sa paraan na gusto ko. Bilang babae, may mga bagay ako na hinahanap. Pero hindi ko hinihingi. Alam ko kasi na ang mga bagay na para sayo, kahit hindi mo hingin, ibibigay. Naging masaya ako sa kung anong meron kame. Pinagkasya ko yung sarili ko sa mga bagay at panahon na alam kong sapat lang sa kakayanan nya. Drive thru, 2-3 oras na magkasama, nakahiga sa sasakyan kasi baka may makakita. Stolen moments.. But I did loved him with those precious moments of ours.
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