I asked him na umahon na kami sa pool, at dumiretso na sa room namin. Kinuha ko na ang satin cover ko from the bench beside the pool while he was waiting for me. Inakbayan niya ako nung naglalakad kami pabalik sa room namin. I was delighted by his action that time, it’s as if kami ulit, I felt the jealousy and amused gazes from the people sa beach front, mapa babae o mapalalaki.
Pagbalik namin sa room namin, he told me na mauna na akong mag shower, gusto ko sana siyang ayain na sabay nalang kami that time, pero kinakabahan ako, he might reject me and the idea, kaya hinayaan ko nalang. Nung nasa shower room na ako, I heard him na may kausap sa phone, parang nag oorder yata siya. After the shower, I looked for something to wear, at naalala kong puro nga pala bikini ang binili ko at damit pang alis na namin. I thought of naughty idea, what if robe nalang or towel lang. Agad ko naman ding sinaway ang sarili ko sa kagagahan ko. I felt the stingy feeling again, as if I am about to be rejected. I sighed a deep breath and inisip ko nalang na, I shouldn’t be expecting anything more from him. I chose a black Bandeaukini set nalang and then nag cover nalang ako ng another white satin cover up sa bottom.
Paglabas ko ng room, he was sitting on the sofa and browsing the tv. I made sure to announce my presence by asking him kung ano ang hinahanap niyang mapapanuod.
“Nothing in particular. Are you done?” and sagot niya sakin without looking at me. Napa pout nalang ako dahil di man lang niya ako tinitigan. Paalis na ako sa kinatatayuan ko when he looked at my direction and met his glazed eyes, para naman akong matutunaw noon. I just told him na it is his turn to take the shower. Napabuntong hininga nalang siya.
“I ordered some foods and a drink. Paki tignan nalang if di pa ako nakakalabas ng shower.” He walked past me pero di ko alam kung imagination ko lang yung pagdampi ng daliri niya sa legs ko, but enough to send shivers to my spine. Damn, ganun ata ako ka-into him that time.
I just removed my cover at naupo sa kama, facing the sliding door. Maya maya nag ring yung bell sa pinto, which was yung inorder ni Liam. Pinapasok ko nalang yung bellboy para maipasok yung orders. Medyo nakakairita lang kasi, as if intentional yung mabagal na kilos niya so he can stare at me and feast on my body. Hindi na ako nakapag cover up, so I am on my bikini suit, baring my skin. Manyak na manyak lang, and I thought of something naughty. Naglakad ako papunta sa table and leaned across the table to check the orders, there I confirmed that he was looking at my cleavage. Saglit na saglit lang yun then I walked near the bathroom door to let Liam know that the orders were there. Nagmadali naman ang bellboy nang marinig na sumagot si Liam, napangiti nalang ako.
I prepared the champagne and the food at the table. Liam walked out of the bathroom and again, I was in awe seeing him. He was wearing a sleeping boxer short and white T na hapit sa katawan niya which accentuates his body. Napakagat labi nalang ako sa sight, and he just smiled at me and kinuha niya yung glasses at champagne sa table. He asked me to go out on the veranda with him. There on, I knew it was going to be a long, emotional night. But I have to face it, I need to amend my wrong decisions from two years ago.
“Alam ko napapansin mo, I am being unpredictable with my actions and hindi ako nag tatanong sayo.” ang panimula niya while motioning that I should seat.
“More like of, hindi rin ako ready sa mga isasagot mo. Eto na yung chance ko na mag ask ng mga questions sayo about what happened.” I looked at him intently, mahinahon padin siya magsalita. Yes I am ready to face him that night.
“Liam, first of all, I wanna say I’m really sorry.”
“I’m sorry I betrayed you.”
“I’m sorry I have caused you pain.”
“I’m sorry, for being a coward.” ang panimula ko sa kanya. He was already standing and facing the shore.
“Why?”
“I… I… I really don’t know how to explain it to you at that time. That is the only thing that I have never been honest with you about.”
“It was a long standing plan na about my petition, before I met you. My papers were already in progress when I met you.”
“Why didn’t you tell me about it?” his next question.
“Because.. It’s because I never knew I would be deeply in love with you at that time.”
“But I was wrong, kasi I fell hard for you. I was afraid of what may happen to us, to me.”
“I was a coward”
“I did not try to fight for what was in front of me. I became selfish. That time, that was the only way for me to save us. I was wrong. We both suffered from my inconsiderate decision. Lalong lalo ka na.”
I heard him let out a long deep sigh. I know I owe him that explanation. There was silence between us, I was looking down on my champagne. I was waiting for his response, but there was none, di ko alam kung ano ang iniisip niya that time. .
“Did you know how much I loved you Lanz? Was it not greatly enough?”
Loved.
Past tense.
Merong makirot sa dibdib ko that time. There was a sudden lump in my throat that wanted to get out.
“I love you, Liam!” isinigaw ko sa kanya yun that time. I needed to tell him, I needed to let him know that I still do love him at that time. My tears started to race down my cheeks. Shit, why was this so messy, how did I managed to get it messier, sabi ko sa sarili ko.
Hindi ko napansin na nasa harap ko na siya, nakaluhod sa harap ko. He wiped my tears, pero tuloy tuloy lang padin ang mga luha ko that night. I was waiting for him to say something, pero wala, wala akong narinig sa kanya. Tinitigan ko siya sa mata, looking for something. Anything that can alleviate the pain in my chest.
Tumayo siya at niyakap niya ako bigla, it was so comforting. It was as if it was home.
“I was asking myself then, what have I done to deserve the pain you brought me.”
“You sent me an email telling me all those stuff. How could you be so selfish?”
“It took me a year bago ko nalaman lahat from Kuya Dan. You could have told me.”
“But deep down inside me, I know that you made a decision of what you thought was great for you. You are that type of person, you will decide after you have considered the Xs and Os and outweigh which is which, and what is more beneficial for all.”
“There will be times that we needed to be selfish even at the expense of hurting somebody. I myself, was a selfish person as well, kasi if you have told me about it, hindi ako papayag na iwanan mo ako. Or maybe, hindi kita liligawan dahil iiwanan mo lang din ako.”
“Di mo kailangang sisihin ang sarili mo for something you decided and chose on. I think you made a good decision to pursue your better future, so I don’t think that you should be regretting your decision.”
Napatayo ako at napayakap ako ng mahigpit sa kanya that time. How could this person be so forgiving? How could he be so selfless? I am expecting him to be mad, mas matatanggap ko yun for me to redeem myself. But he made me weak at that time, right there and then. Lanz the alpha is nowhere to be found.
He slipped his arms sa beywang ko and hugged me from there. I rested my head on his shoulder, facing his neck. He suddenly kissed my hair, at napapikit nalang ako. We stayed in that position for God knows how long it was. My body was already resting on him, magkalapat kami, until I felt his hard on sa bandang puson ko. I felt like namula ako, but at the same time, I felt good. I still have a strong effect on him. Lalo ko pang idiniin ang katawan ko sa kanya, specially my lower part.
I started to plant kisses on his neck. Naramdaman ko na biglang bumilis ang tibok ng puso niya that time. I caressed his chest, to his left nipple and back to his chest. I felt his left hand na dahan dahang pinipisil ang beywang ko, and right hand slipped to my bare butt cheek. I was waiting na hilain niya pa ako para mapadiin pa ako sa cock niya that time. I didn’t need to ask nor wait for it because he did it. I stopped kissing his neck at napatingala sa kanya, I know we both wanted to kiss each other, and there and then, our lips met. We started with soft kisses, then he tried to suck and bit my upper lip then my lower lip. I felt good with what he was doing. Whenever he did my upper lip, I licked his lower lip. There were again, kissing torridly, sipsipan at palitan ng laway. Di ko na natiis and I started to rub myself on his hard on, and that time, his two hands were already mashing my exposed butt cheeks.
“Mmmmhhhppphhhh…mmmmm….uuuhhmmmppppp…hhhmmmmmmm” I started to moan through kisses na din because why not, it feels good. I started to feel wet down as well, halik palang yun. My goodness, this guy really knows how to kiss.
We didn’t care or have we just forgotten that we were just outside our room, wala naman makakakita sa amin since gabi na at wala na nagdadaan sa beach shore. Di ko na namalayan, but I bumped into a table. Binuhat ako ni Liam paangat sa table, then binaba niya lang yung bottle ng champagne. Pinaghiwalay niya dahan dahan ang legs ko, even without doing it, I will open it for him. He then positioned himself in between my legs, leaned on me and started kissing me again.
“Uuuhhhhmmmmmmmm” my moan through kisses because he started to softly tracing his index finger sa ibabaw ng breast ko, from left to right with circular motion. He did it as well sa cleavage ko. In response, I did the same tracing sa ibabaw ng boxer shorts niya, I used two fingers to motion a V on his hard on, pataas at pababa. Naramdaman ko na nagkaroon ng diin ang mga haplos niya sa breast ko, maybe because of what he did.
Maybe he can no longer control it, binaba niya na ang top ko to expose my breasts. Para hindi masira yung bikini top ko, I untied it nalang. His kisses swarmed my neck, with licking. Napatingala nalang ako dahil dito with my mouth open. I grabbed his cock with my left hand and pinisil pisil ko yun, and my right hand was in his nape, caressing it, minsan napapasabunot pa ako coz of the sensation he was giving me.
“Aaaahhhhhhh hhhhmmmmmmm iiiiiihhhhhhhmmmmmmm” my long moans when he started to cup my right breast. He gave my left breast an equal attention by kissing and licking the sides, the top and my cleavage as well.
“Ang bango mo Lanz.” ungol lang din naman ang naisasagot ko sa kanya that time. He was doing it slow, and making my anticipation so intense at that time. I feel like, gusto ko na yung deed, and the longer the anticipation, I felt like manginginig ang mga kalamnan ko sa katawan ko.
“Uu…