“Hey, what’s up? Did anything happen?” ang tanong niya sa akin. Nagkunot pa ako ng noo at todo pout to let him know na I am not okay. At tumawa tawa pa ito, na nakatingin sa akin, until he raised his hands to let me know na may bitbit siya.
“Nagpa deliver ako from McDo. Gusto ko kasi ng burger. I bought you your double cheese burger as well. With no pickles. I bought you some clothes na din. Well technically, they were just cover ups, mukha nga lang fish net.” ang natatawa tawa pa nitong sabi. Eto yung isa pa sa nagustuhan ko sa kanya, very attentive siya sa mga maliliit na bagay. When you tell him something, he will remember it.
I let myself loose from him and napaupo ako sa kama to check the cover ups he was telling. It was the perfect cover that I needed for the beach. I took out the burger, and I felt that I was super hungry na din. He was just staring at me, at nagtaka naman ako. Napataas lang ang isang kilay ko sa kanya which he answered with a smile. Napababa ang kilay ko, para akong natunaw sa titig niya. Iniiwas ko nalang ang tingin ko sa kanya and continued eating my burger. He also started eating his burger, while browsing some channels on the TV.
“Do you have any plans for the day?” ang tanong niya sa akin.
“Um, gusto ko sanang pumunta sa ancestral house sa capitol. But having second thoughts din.”
“Why? We can drive. Para na din makabili tayo ng spare clothes.”
“Can we just buy clothes nalang then get back here? Or do you have any other plans?” ang sabi ko sa kanya. Medyo natagalan siya sa pagsagot. I just continued eating my burger then.
“Nah, I don’t have naman. Okay, let’s drive to the capitol in an hour.”
After eating my burger, I hit the shower. When I was removing my robe, andami kong red marks sa breast ko. Sa ibabaw, gilid, even my under boobies. I also checked my pussy lips and inner thigh, it was still swollen but subsiding, pero tadtad din ng red marks ang inner thigh ko. I tried replaying in my head what happened the previous night. I giggled, kilig na kilig ang inday. Para akong kinikilti na ewan. I made sure that I properly bath, kasi may mga lagkit lagkit pa sa katawan ko. I am not sure if natuyong laway ba yun.
We were in the capitol ng saktong lunch time. Nag lunch muna kami sa isang restaurant doon na part ng isang hotel. After eating, we went straight to a small mall there, but the selection of clothes there was good. Noong highschool ako, doon ako namimili ng damit ko din and they were really nice. I chose khaki short shorts and denim short shorts. Kumuha din ako ng fitted jeans na isa. I took one white and black crop top, one fitted polo shirt and one sunny dress na medyo maikli. Siya naman ay kumuha lang ng isang shorts, one set of boxer underwear, isang jeans, at dalawang polo short.
After we finished shopping, he asked me if there’s anything I wanted to go to. I asked him if we could go to the Paoay church. I offered na ako nalang ang mag drive, since he might be tired, and ayoko din siyang mapagod talaga. It was settled and we drove to Paoay. I took pictures of the church and secretly took some shots of him. Sa kanya ako natuto din photography, it’s one of his hobbies. Nang mapagod na kami sa pag ikot ikot sa vicinity, I bought our drinks. Naupo kami sa hood ng kotse, and just looked at the church.
“How long was this church standing again?” ang tanong niya.
“Uhm, I think almost or atleast three hundred years?”
“It is still so magnificent. It was able to maintain its grandeur.” napatingin ako sa kanya sa sagot niya. Nagkibit balikat nalang ako at muling tinitigan ang church.
“Ahuh. It has withstood calamities, war and..time. If it is written as literature, it will be magnificent, a tale as old as time.”
It was his turn to look at me. Napatingin ako sa kanya nang hindi niya na ako sinagot. Di ko alam kung ano ang tumatakbo sa isip niya that time. Napayuko nalang ako para ayusin ang buhok ko sa gilid ng tenga ko. When I looked at him again, nakatingin parin ito sa akin at nakangiti.
“What?” tanong ko sa kanya.
“Nothing…”
“What’s with the smile?”
“You are in your element.” di ko alam kung mapapahiya ba ako or what sa sinabi niya.
We stayed for another half hour just staring and taking pictures of the church. Meron din akong mga picture niya, puro stolen shot. When I looked at it, napapangiti ako, it was as if he was the Liam that I met from Boracay. It was five in the afternoon when we decided to drive back to Pagudpud, at ako na din ang nag drive. Dumiretso na kami sa resto ng hotel to take our dinner, then we decided to walk sa beach front. The shore line was crowded because of several bonfires. Dumiretso na kami sa room namin after taking a bottle of champagne and wine sa bar ng hotel. Nauna na akong nag shower, and followed by him pagkalabas ko.
I opened the sliding door to be greeted by a cold night breeze from the sea and it felt good. I opened the bottle of champagne and poured some in my glass at saka naupo. Maya maya pa ay lumabas na din si Liam sa shower room.
“Drinking alone eh?”
“Join me.”
Kumuha ito ng glass niya at nagsalin ng wine. Walang umiimik sa aming dalawa that time, or siguro wala lang gustong maunang magsalita. Sa peripheral vision ko, I saw him tinkering with his phone. Andun nanaman yung bitter taste feeling na di ko ma explain.
“Anything bothering you?” ang tanong niya sa akin at saka binaba ang phone niya sa table.
“Huh? Wala naman.” ang sagot ko nalang sa kanya pero di ko siya tinitignan.
Another dead silence.
I thought to myself, it was time that I should talk about ourselves. Yes, I want him back that time, that is if pwede pa. If may chance pa ba, the only way for me to confirm it is to confront him. I mustered all of my courage to open up the discussion. Bahala na kung ano ang kahinatnan. I was willing to gamble that time, all in. Babalik na din ako ng US, willing ako that time to take necessary actions for him para hindi na kami magkawalay pa at di na maulit yung nangyari. I learned my lessons. I really fell hard for him.
“Liam…”
“Hm? Ano yun?”
“Do you think, if I told you about my plans before, would you still pursue me?” napatingin siya sa akin with confused look.
“I just want to know. Lagi ko din kasi tinatanong yun sa sarili ko and syempre, wala naman sasagot sa akin, and I don’t know what’s the answer to it.” ang sabi ko sa kanya. He looked at me as if saying, are you serious?
“Kung di ka naman comfortable sagutin, nevermind. Forget what I asked.” I felt that hindi ko pa inuumpisahan yung battle, talo na agad ako. And should have chosen a battle that I know I can win, but for me then, it was now or never.
“Tulad nga ng sabi ko sayo kagabi, selfish din ako. If nalaman ko yun noon palang, I would not pursue you.”
“BUT… if you have told me na nung tayo na, di ko din alam ang sagot. I may pursue you to the end, pero alam ko na may mga hurdles tayong pagdadaanan. Like, we’d be in an LDR situation. Which I think, it may or may not work sa atin and pwedeng maghihiwalay lang din tayo.” I let him continue talking that time.
“Kaya ko nasabi na hindi mag work, is because we both know na may pagka clingy tayo, but only if nagmature tayo agad agad, I might work pero wala ring guarantee.”
“Why do you ask?” ang balik na tanong niya sa akin. I was weighing in sa mga sinabi niya that time, and at some point it really makes sense din naman at bata pa kami noon.
“I asked because, syempre I want to know if it will make any difference to our situation then and now.”
“…and? Do you think it will make any difference?” napa tingin ako sa champagne ko, asking myself the same question.
“To answer you honestly, hindi ko alam.”
“Exactly. What you have right now are “what ifs” because you feel regret. If we remove regrets from the equation, will you still have “what ifs”?”
“Yes. What if I told you everything and whether we understood the situation or not, then maybe we would have pursued a different path than what we had.” I am willing to show all my cards, all in na. Bahala na kung ano ang result. Nakita ko din na medyo nagulat siya sa sagot ko. I saw him clench his teeth. Nagpipigil siya that time and there was silence after.
“You said last night, you loved me. Don’t you anymore, Liam?” instantly, I was taken aback. Shit, wrong move, I thought. Pero wala nang atrasan to, I want to fight this time and I will.
“Lanz…”
“It’s okay if hindi na. To be honest, I am hoping that you still do.. But I fully understand the situation and where I should be.”
He did not answer back.
Long silence.
Shit.
Shit.
Shit.
Naiiyak na ako that time, kaya tinungga ko yung champagne sa baso ko at nagsalin ulit ng isa pa. This time, I let my tears flow at napayakap ako sa sarili ko. I did not pity myself, medyo masakit lang yung feeling ng defeat. Tumalikod ako sa kanya at humarap sa dagat, so he would not see me crying. I still have my pride and ayokong maramdaman niya na as if ako pa yung victim. I don’t want him to pity me in that state.
“Lanz…” naramdaman kong nasa likod ko na siya. Hindi ako humarap sa kanya, instead napapikit pa ako ng mariin. I felt rejected.
“When you left saying nothing, I was a wreck. Thinking kung ano ba yung nagawa ko sayo na hindi mo nagustuhan at hindi ka na nagparamdam.” lalo akong napaiyak when I heard that. Nasaktan talaga ako.
“I shifted my attention to studying lang. I needed that to keep me sane at hindi ko pagdudahan ang sarili ko at capacity ko.”
“A year ago, dun palang ako nag start na maging okay. Kuya Dan helped me to get some freelance jobs as a real estate consultant while I am studying. I found out na may talent pala ako sa sales, and it only took me 2 months para maka benta ng property.”
“That time, nagkaroon ako ng client who was looking a condominium that time. Her name is Ari. We became good friends after we closed the deal. Six months ago, we started going out, pero occasional lang. We don’t know yet kung ano ang deal namin, but safe to say that we are still friends.”
“Yes, I did say I loved you, but that doesn’t mean that I am in love with someone else. Yet.”
“I am not sure if I still love you right now or hindi na. When I saw you the other day, all the pain, bumalik lahat sa akin.” his voice was shaking. Lalo akong nanlumo that time, compared to what I went through, is incomparable with him.
Humarap na ako sa kanya that time to see him crying. I immediately hugged him, and said sorry continuously. Kung may makakakita sa amin that time, they would think we were filming. Mala Popoy at Basha kami. I really asked heaven, na sana, kami nalang ulit. That night, realizations hit me harder, sinayang ko siya. We could have worked our differences. We could have strived hard to maintain our relationship. I could have chosen him too back then. But I did not.
We stayed outside for hours that night. In silence. He leaned his head on my shoulder, while we both stared at the sea, listening to the waves. We were not checking the time, I didn’t care at all that time. I could spend all my time, basta magkasama kami.
“Lanz…” ang putol niya sa katahimikan.
“Hmm?”
“Did you really think na we could have taken a different route and we can strive the odds?” medyo nabuhayan ako sa tanong niya na yun.
“Yes, I think so.” sagot ko sa kanya. I heard him draw a sigh.
“Why, what’s the matter?”
“Wala naman. Yun din ang iniisip ko noon, na maybe we could have tried working it out. There is a possibility of na maghiwalay tayo in the long run because of the distance and time difference.”
“Ayaw mo na ba akong ipursue? Ayaw mo ba akong sundan sa US? I know I sound self centered now, pero di ko pa afford na mag stay dito ulit because I am working with my residency there.”
“I will not ask you to din naman. And no you are not self centered, naiintindihan ko naman yun at alam ko yun. I am not sure within myself if gusto kitang i-pursue pa.”
“Is it because of her?”
“No. I told you, we are not in that stage yet. But she knows na andito ka, nagkita tayo at magkasama tayo ngayon.”
“Reason why you were busy with your phone, right?” I felt jealousy that time. I really do and I made sure that he would sense it. Selosa talaga din ako dati, maybe until now.
“Not really, partly my freelance gigs. But I am also applying na din sa mga firm so I can get a proper job.”
“I still love you Lanz. That’s the truth. Pero hindi ko alam kung saan tayo papunta. I can no longer promise you the things I did for you before.”
Deep down inside me, natuwa ako sa narinig ko sa kanya. That gave me something to hope for for the two of us. I leaned my head sa ulo niya na naka rest sa shoulder ko.
“Lanz, give me some time to think about it. About us, hindi ako maka commit, not because of another person, but I want to know how this will turn out.”
“No worries, I agree with you naman din.” surprisingly, it made me calm. It gave some sense of peace.
“Are we still atleast friends?”
“Can we still be friends?”
Natawa kami when blurted it out nang sabay. He held my left hand at saka siya umayos at tinitigan ang kamay ko. Afterwards, we looked at each other, smiling. At that time, I can no longer ask for anything else. I felt satisfaction kahit na hindi ko nakuha yung gusto ko. I have no rights to demand at that time, pero gusto kong lumaban this time.
“Kailan ka babalik ng US?”
“After two weeks pa naman. Can we.. Can we still go on a date before I go back sa US?”
“Are you sure about it Lanz?”
“Is that okay with you?”
“I am okay with it, ikaw lang ang winoworry…”
Hindi ko na siya pinatapos magsalita, I kissed him right away to let him know about my answer sa kung ano man ang worry niya for me.
“..ko. I guess we can go on.”
Wala na akong naisagot when his lips invaded my lips. He kissed me which I answered back by licking his lips at ipasok ko ang dila ko sa bibig niya, which he welcomed by sucking it. Napahawak ako sa batok niya at napasabunot. I did the same thing with him, sucked his tongue in my mouth.
Pinatayo niya ako then made me sit on his lap and we continued our kiss. I have nothing in mind that night, that was our last night sa resort and tomorrow, we will be travelling back to Manila. I want this trip to be memorable sa akin. For both of us, and if it will be categorized as exes/friends with benefits, I don’t care. I don’t mind. What I wanted was our happiness on that night.
Nag grind ako sa ibabaw niya to awake what needs to be awaken. I can feel that my bikini underwear was getting wet. He started to mash my left boobies, and I can feel the heat of his palm kahit na naka tshirt pa ako at naka bikini bra. His left handcaress my right legs up to my butt then pabalik sa inner legs ko. Those were my most sensitive part, next to my neck then my breasts. I felt his hard on at iniayos ko ang sarili ko so that his hard cock would be sandwiched by my pussy slit. His hard cock felt good sa pussy ko, and made me feel even better when I started moving my hips, dry humping him.
He cupped my butt and tumayo siya, without stopping our kiss, tumayo siya at iniyakap ko ang legs ko sa waist niya. He started to move, papasok sa loob ng room namin. He laid me down sa bed and then removed my shorts. I lifted myself to help him remove my shorts, then removed my shirt as well. He looked at me, with so much care but at the same time, with lots of horniness. He removed all of his clothes and underwear, at napakagat labi nalang ako nang makita ko ulit ang cock niya na matigas at mamula mula. In response, I removed my bikini undies and rolled my bikini bra down. Naupo siya sa left side ko, at hinila ako pabangon. Pinatayo niya ako at saka niya ako iniupo sa lap niya. Nakatalikod ako sa kanya so his cock was at my back pero it feels good kasi mainit.
He spread my legs, and napa akbay ako sa kanya. I kissed him and caressed his face, ayokong pakawalan ang paghalik sa kanya. He put his left hand sa ibabaw ng pussy ko, and felt the sudden charge of bolt sa katawan ko.
“Uhhmmmppp” I moaned in kisses when he put pressure on my clit and did a circular motion.
“Uuuummmmmm” another moan when his pinky finger reached for my clit while doing the circular motion.
Sinipsip ko ulit ang dila niya, coz why not, ang sarap. His right hand reached for my right breast and mashed it. Gusto ko sana mapaliyad sa ginagawa niya, he was attacking me from all sides. Maya maya pa, he stopped kissing me and reached for my left boobies and sucked it. I curled my feet in a tip toe motion because of the sensation. He was licking my left left nips, mashing my right boobies and playing with my clit. This made my back arch, and I can no longer gauged how horny he made me that night. He inserted two fingers in my wet pussy and started to finger fuck me.
“Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh” I can tell na ang landi landi ng ungol ko that time, because of the pleasure he was giving me.
“Aaaahhhhhh aaaahhhhhh oooohhhhhhhhhh” his rhythm changed, it became faster. Di pa siya nakuntento, he sucked my left boobies again and all I could do was to moan at sabunutan siya.
“L-Liam, can I cum in your mouth?” I asked him in pleasure and looked at his eyes, he smiled naughtily.
Pinatayo niya ako at nahiga siya malapit sa headboard. He motioned to me to sit on his face, I know this is his favorite position if he wants to eat me. I obliged. Unang dumampi ang dila niya sa wet pussy ko at para naman akong nakuryente dahil napa angat ako but let myself to sit on his face agad. He immediately grabbed my butt cheeks at ako naman ay napahawak sa headboard and my right hand cupped my right breast at nilamutak ko.
“Uuuuhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmm” I moaned hard, kagat labi talaga, kasi if didn’t do it, I may shout. He inserted his tongue inside my wet pussy.
“Oooooohhhhhhhh fffuuuuucccckkkkkk” he continued attacking my wet pussy by alternately licking my clit and tongue fucking me while he was groping my butt cheeks.
“Aahhh aaahhh aaahhhh aaaahhhhh uuummmm uuummmmm” my continous moan when humped myself sa bibig niya. Di ko na kinaya, and I came on his mouth.
We did 69 afterwards, I sucked his hard cock while he was licking my wet pussy lips and my butthole. I bobbed my head on his cock fastly, it really felt good. Di rin naman nag tagal he tapped my butt for me to stop.
“Lanz, can you go on your fours?” I sucked his cock one more time and left saliva on its head. I moved to his feet at agad din naman siyang bumangon. I set myself on fours, spread my legs, nakatukod ang elbows ko, arched my back.
“Fuck Lanz, that’s the perfect position.” I looked at him, licked my lips and bit it afterward. I heard him cursing again.
“Aaaahhhhhh d-don’t..tease me Liam.” I felt his cock’s head rubbing my pussy lips up and down. I pushed myself backwards dahil di ko na kaya, I badly wanted to be fucked by him. I want him inside me.
Napanganga nalang ako when he slowly inserted his fat hard cock inside my wet pussy. That fucking sensation was so much for me. Hinawakan niya ang balakang ko para maisagad niya pa sa pussy ko yung cock niya. He started to thrust immediately but slowly. I buried my face in bed, because I really can’t take the sensation.
“Shit aaaahhhhh Laannzzz your pussy feels great. Ang sarap, so tight.”
“Fuck me Liam!”
“Yes I will fuck you Lanz. Take my cock.”
“Aaaahhhhhh oooooohhhhhh ssshhhiiiittttt”
He continued fucking me with his slow rhythm. I came twice in that position, and we changed to missionary. Once changed, his rhythm changed. He fucked me fast and harder.
“Aaaaahhhhhhhh shhiiiittt ssshhhiiiiittt ffffuccck fuck sshhhiiittt fffuuuccckkkk”
“Uhm uhm uhm uhm sarap Lanz!”
“Y-yes y-yes more more more Liam oh shit!”
“Fuck fuck fuck fuck harder Liam, faster!”
“Fuck me aaaahhhhh fuck me ooohhhhh sshhhiiitttt”
“Yes Lanz, I want to fuck you more.”
“Y-yes p-please f-fuck me! M-more more! Aaahhhhh ssshhhiiiitttttt ang sarap fuck meeee!”
My breasts were bouncing and he sucked and licked it alternately. It was fucking delicous. He fucked me deliciously. I embraced my legs to him, and by doing so, he reached a deeper side of my pussy. My juices were already flowing down.
“L-Lanz I’m cumming. I can’t take it anymore. You are so fucking delicious.”
“Fill me in Liam, cum inside meeeee aaaahhhhhhhh sabay tayo!”
His first spurt made me cum instantly. I can feel our juices overflowing in my pussy. Pareho kaming hinihingal that time. Our eyes locked, I looked at him with all passion and love, naluha ako afterwards.
“Liam, I love you. I really do…” I can no longer control my tears.
“Sana tayo nalang ulit.” he looked at my eyes, deadlock. He smiled at me. I am not expecting he’d answer me right away. I just wanted to let him know how I feel.
“I know Lanz. You will not do this if you don’t love me.” yun lang ang naging sagot niya sa akin at hinalikan niya ako.
His kiss was not a lustful kiss, it was more of a caring kiss. I felt he cannot verbalize whatever he wants to say at that time. But I was so determined to give him time to think and gauge his feelings. I will not force him.
We lied down in bed, at niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit, and I did the same. I will wait for his decision, whatever it is. Maybe you’d think that I was that desperate, and yes I was desperate that time. I really do want to fight for us and for him that time. I made a huge mistake leaving him two years ago, and I will never do the same mistake again.
Naisip ko na din na I should let him go and kung kami talaga, kami sa huli, but I am not taking any chances that time. Chances were already in my hands to win him again. Maybe you’d think I am being a bitch at that time, but I really don’t care. I only have limited time, and I am determined to win it with Liam before I go back to the US. I made plans sa isip ko, I will convince him na sumunod sa akin doon and I will help syempre. Kung magiging selfish na rin lang ako, gusto ko sa kanya. But of course, that is if he wants to. If not, I will respect it, I will let him go.
Matagal ko din siyang pinagmamasdan that night. He hasn’t changed, I thought, para padin siyang baby pag natutulog. Memories poured down the lane, which made me smile and kissed his forehead. I know at that moment, ready na ako. I am ready for whatever the outcome of my last two weeks here in the Philippines. We may work it out, or it may be the last two weeks that I can be with him, kiss him, hug him and be one with him. Next day will be another battle, at pabalik na kami ng Manila. If only I could stop time, at doon nalang kami, I’d do it.
“I love you Liam. So much.” I whispered to him and kissed him before I went to dreamland.
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This is the second to the last chapter of the story. Maraming salamat sa muling pagtangkilik sa aking gawa. Let me know if you want to have Liam’s POV as the next story line. If not, I’ll proceed with another true to life story, prolly another two weeks from now.
Again, maraming salamat lalo sa mga nahook at nag comment, nag react at nagbasa. Cheers!