So December came, cramming lahat ng students. Exams, Org events, then Christmas Party. Hindi naman ako killjoy na tao, pero tamad na tamad talaga ako mag attend ng mga party or even org events. Ate Ren was already graduating that time, so lahat ng responsibilities niya were being endorsed sa mga magiging successors. After the cramming week, we were invited sa isang party organized nila Ate Ren and the others. It was a Friday, at sa Anonas ginanap ang party, they rented the whole place, party na din ito sa mga graduating students that time.
Late na din ako dumating that time, at kailangan ko pang i-justify sa bahay noon ang pag alis ko. Pagkadating ko doon, I was greeted by ate Lyka at hinila niya na ako sa bar area at nag order ng drinks. Maya maya lang ay may humila sa kanya kaya naiwan ako doon. I looked around, hindi naman madami yung tao, hindi rin kaunti. Hindi ko kilala halos lahat ng tao doon, pero aliw na aliw ako sa mga mag partner na nagsasayaw sa dance floor. Maya maya lang, I heard na may mga nagtatawanan sa likuran ko, at paglingon ko, I was surprised to see Lanz among the group. Tinanguan ko siya and waved hi, ganun din ang ginawa niya, at umalis na din sila.
Hindi ko na alam kung gano na katagal ang lumipas when I decided to step out and take some smoke, nag bitbit na din ako ng drinks ko that time. I have to walk sa gilid ng kanto at doon tumambay. If you know 70s Bistro, then you know how it looks like sa labas. Medyo madilim sa part na nalakaran ko when I heard na may nag uusap or nag aaway. Gusto ko sanang makiusisa, kaso magmumukha naman akong tsismoso. Pero, from what I am hearing, babae at lalaki yun, and somehow, parang familiar yung boses ng babae. Just as I am about to finish my second stick of Marlboro lights, palakas ng palakas yung pag aaway nung dalawa until the girl passed me, and it was Lanz. Napatingin siya sa akin, and to my shock, bigla niya akong hinila at napalingon ako sa pinanggalingan niya. Madilim talaga kaya di ko naaninagan yung guy habang kinakaladkad naman ako ni Lanz.
“H-hey, what’s going on?” ang tanong ko sa kanya.
“Just follow me. Do you know how to drive?”
“Yeah. Why?”
“Shut up. Here, take the keys. Let’s go, bring me somewhere.”
Feeling ko that time, kinikidnap ako. Pero kung kamukha naman ni Pia Guanio, why not. So I hopped in her car, which was a silver Mazda 3. She was storming the passenger side and shouted to me to get inside. Damn. I really don’t know kung saan kami pupunta, I asked her very quickly where she wanted to go, and she just answered me na just drive. When I was about to start my driving, that’s the only time I realized dala dala ko yung bote ng beer from the club. We ended up driving sa Cloud9 Antipolo. Ang sabi niya, yung guy na kausap niya, persistent suitor niya from their home province, which happened na nag aaral din sa Ateneo. I asked her bakit di niya pa sagutin, ayaw niya daw, boring na, bobo pa. I just laughed at her remark, tawang tawa talaga ako which made her pout that time. Ako naman ang medyo natahimik, she looks cute and adorable sa pag pout niya.
Marami kaming napag kwentuhan that night. At napag alaman namin na somehow, we were connected through common friends, and kilala ko ang pinsan niya kasi barkada namin when I studied and lived in province. We do have the same province in the north din pala. We have almost met din pala sa mga events sa province before, in highschool. The connection between us was so relevant, aside from the fact na okay siya kausap, and I could sense that she is an alpha female not ready to submit any time soon.
We continued to meet after that Christmas party. Mahilig siya mag party sa mga club, at ako naman ay napapasama though invites lang. We would also meet during org summits, or anything related to school paper or journo. Until we scheduled a meetups na kaming dalawa lang. You may say in a way we were already seeing each other for personal reasons. We would dine, watch movies, tumambay sa mga bookstore, mag travel and what not. Summer came, tapos na ang school year nanaman, we would hang out na kaming dalawa lang. Although that time, we haven’t invited each other sa mga bahay bahay namin.
There were times na hindi rin siya magpaparamdam, but I don’t look for her. I won’t send messages or emails. Until I realized na, I am starting to miss her. Before my birthday, my family decided to go north. Pagdating doon, I was invited by my friends there to hang out with them. I was surprised to see Lanz na andoon din pala siya, she never mentioned about it, those were the times na hindi siya magpaparamdam. I was getting my drink when a guy came to me.
“Hey, I know you.” yun lang ang bungad niya sa akin. At dahil mas matangkad ako sa kanya, literally, I was looking down on him.
“You know me? Do I know you?”
“Ikaw yung guy sa bar, last December. What’s your relationship with Lanz?”
Sasagot pa sana ako when Lanz pulled him out. Surprisingly, hindi niya ako pinansin. It was as if I don’t exist or hindi niya ako kilala. The whole time during that get together, hindi kami nagpansinan. Medyo nairita ako that time the way she treated me. We were introduced to each other, gusto ko sanang sabihin sa kanila na magkakilala na kami, pero sinakyan ko nalang din. Natapos na lahat ang get together, hindi parin kami nag iimikan or nag papansinan. There were instances when I tried to talk to her, but it seemed like na iniiwasan niya ako. Pauwi na ako, when I received an SMS from her.
“Wer r u?”
luminga linga muna ako sa area to check where is she.
“Outside, w8ng 4 Froy, abt 2 go home”
ang sagot ko sa kanya.
Maya maya lang ay may bumangga sa akin from behind, at nung makalampas sa akin, si Lanz. I was about to call her, when I saw the guy again walking side by side with her. Ni hindi ako nilingon ni Lanz.
“Nananadya ka ba?” ang sabi sakin nung guy. It was as if on queue, gusto kong sa kanya ibuhos yung pagka inis ko that day.
“Oo, bakit? It seems that your girl wasn’t hurt at all.” ang sagot ko sa kanya na pa sarcastic.
“Tanginamo ah! Fuck you gago.” ang sagot nito sa akin at nginitian ko lang.
“Ano, tara square, dito na.” ang hamon nito sa akin. Ang mga kasama naman namin ay umawat na. Pero mukhang di naman papaawat si gago, so I accepted his challenge that time.
“Sige!”
“Liam!” ang tawag ni Lanz. She was fuming in anger at hindi ko alam kung bakit saka niya muli hinila yung guy. Most of the time, hindi ko naman ito papatulan, but at that moment, lalo akong nagalit sa ginawa ni Lanz, and I don’t know why. I think I was jealous at that time.
Saktong birthday ko nang makabalik kami ng Manila. Hindi ko na masyadong inintindi ang nangyari sa Ilocos, hindi rin kami nagkausap ni Lanz. I received an SMS kinagabihan, and it was Lanz.
“Bk8 d mo cnab, 2day is ur bday.”
I just ignored her message at bumalik sa pc ko to play RO. I don’t know how long was it, pero nag ring ang phone ko, at siya ang tumatawag. I ignored it again, thinking, baka miscall lang ang gagawin niya, but I was wrong.
“Hello.”
“That was cold hello, Liam…”
“Uh, yeah, why, what’s up?”
“Happy birthday Liam.”
“Thank you.”
“Galit ka ba sa akin?”
“What do you think?”
Hindi siya agad sumagot, and I heard she drew a deep breath. The nerve of this woman, ang sa isip isip ko. Then she asked me if we can meet that night, nasa labasan daw siya and she can pick me up kung san ako malapit. She was not my girlfriend, so in normal circumstances, idedecline ko lang siya. I saw myself standing sa waiting shed and patiently waiting for her. Nung dumating siya, nag park siya then turned on her car’s hazard lights. She was so pretty that night, wearing pink polo shirt na medyo hapit sa kanya, at white short shorts at doll shoes. Sa suot niya, sobrang highlighted how sexy she was. Samantalang ako, I was just wearing cargo shorts and polo shirt din tapos slides, parang pupunta lang sa tindahan. She told me immediately that I should drive at punta kaming Cloud9.
Cloud9 has been our go to place, and up to this day, memorable sakin ang place na yun. Pagdating namin doon ay pinauna niya na akong bumaba. Maya maya pa bumaba na siya at may dala dala itong cake at nakangiti sa akin.
“Wag ka ng magalit sa akin, please.” ang paawa effect niya sa akin. Ako naman ay napabuntong hininga nalang.
“Happy birthday Liam! Make a wish.” tinitigan ko muna yung cake, made my wish at saka ko hinipan. Para naman siyang bata na tuwang tuwa.
Nilapag niya yung cake sa hood ng kotse niya at kumuha ng paper plates at drinks mula sa trunk ng kotse niya. Di na din namin namalayan ang oras, sa dami nang napagkuwentuhan namin. Di na rin ako nakatiis, I asked her about the guy at nagkuwento naman siya.
“So ano ang palabas mo these past few weeks at sa Ilocos?” ang tanong ko sa kanya. Nakayuko lang to at nilalaro laro ng paa niya yung damo.
“Naiinis ako sayo.” ang sagot nito.
“Why? May nagawa ba ako sayo na ikinainis mo or ikinagalit mo?”
“Nanliligaw ka ba kay ate Lyka?” ang diretsong tanong nito sa akin. Napatingin naman ako sa kanya, and she was already staring at me, waiting for my answer. Nangiti nalang ako that time.
“Nope. Di ko siya type. Besides, I like someone else. Lately ko lang na realize.” ang sagot ko sa kanya. Medyo na inrigue siya sa sagot ko.
“Do I know this person?”
“Yeah, you know this person.”
“Alright, ikaw yun. Ikaw ang gusto ko. I realized this nung nasa Ilocos tayo. Sobrang inis ko nun, lalo dun sa suitor mo. And I was jealous. I have grown missing you pag di tayo magkausap. Masaya ako na kasama ka. That’s when I realized, gusto kitang maging girlfriend.” ang sagot ko sa kanya. Siya naman ang natahimik.
“I was planning to ask you kung pwede kitang ligawan. But since andito naman na tayo, eh itatanong ko na.”
“No. You can’t” ang biglang sagot niya sa akin. Di pa man, basted na ako. Tumahimik nalang ako, Damn, sabi ko sa sarili ko.
Medyo matagal tagal yung katahimikan. Medyo awkward na sa akin. Di naman bago sa akin ang magka girlfriend o manligaw, I had two previous relationships naman na din. Di ako sanay na mabasted. Or rather, I am not used to this situation. Di ko talaga alam kung anong next na sasabihin ko.
“O-okay lang naman. Di kita pipilitin, but this was a good time din for me, at nasabi ko sayo to.”
“Anyway, thank you for the birthday treat.” ang nasabi ko nalang sa kanya. Damn, ang awkward talaga.
“You know what, I was waiting for you to tell me that. I like you too. Ikaw palang yung nakasabay sa akin talaga. I mean we have the same wavelength at hindi ka lang looks, but you are so smart.” ang sagot niya sa akin.
“O-okay. Pero bakit mo ako binasted?” ang takang tanong ko sa kanya.
“Huh? Hindi kita binabasted.”
“Eh bakit ayaw mo na ligawan kita?”
“. . .coz..you don’t have to..” ang nakayuko nitong sagot sa akin.
“..meaning to say….girlfriend na kita?” ang gulat na tanong ko sa kanya.
“Kaya wag mo akong sasaktan, kundi malalagot ka talga.”
I hugged her tight, at ganun din ang ginawa niya. We kissed. That was the very first kiss that we shared. It was already morning when we decided to go home. That was the first time as well na maihatid ko siya sa bahay nila.
It was during our six months when we both decided to take our relationship to the next level, and yes that was the time na na virgin ko siya. It was not something to remember, we both agreed na hindi namin na enjoy yun, she was almost hospitalized due to blood loss. And just like any other relationship, we had our ups and downs. Pag nag aaway kami, there were instances na ilang araw kami di mag uusap. There was this one fight na talagang pinag awayan namin, I was so jealous sa isang guy na laging sumasama sa kanya to the point na minsan na siyang pinag drive pauwi sa kanila. I was fuming in anger that time, although she explained naman na nung ihatid siya was because they were about to do school project at group sila na pumunta sa bahay.
Hindi kami nagkita or nag usap for a week that time, galit ako sa kanya dahil nagseselos ako at galit siya sakin dahil di ko siya iniintindi. Ako din naman ang unang nag give in sa aming dalawa. It was a Saturday late afternoon when I decided na pumunta sa kanila. Todo porma ako syempre with flowers and chocolates. Di ko sinabi na pupunta ako, pero alam kong andun lang naman siya. Pinagbuksan naman niya ako ng gate nang makarating ako at pinapasok.
“Are you bribing me?”
“Nope. It is an offering for my goddess, para di na siya magalit sa akin. And I am sorry.” nakita ko siya nangingiti ngiti sa kilig pero pigil.
“Put them on the table…uuhhmmmmm” agad ko siyang pinigilang maglakad, hinila ko ang kanang kamay niya and immediately kissed her.
“Aaaahhhhhhh uuuhhhhhhmmmmmmm” she was already moaning in between our kisses. I pushed her back sa dingding ng sala nila and grabbed her left leg, and she automatically embraced it sa waist ko.
“Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh” I leaned on her so I could kiss her neck, at puro ungol nalang ang maririnig from her. Napapasabunot pa siya sa akin.
She was only wearing short shorts na manipis at white shirt na manipis din. She was not wearing any bras, and I could feel her breasts sa chest ko
“Aaaaaahhhhhh hhhoooonnnnn” napa ungol pa siya lalo when I tried playing her erect left nipple. Nang magsawa na ako, tinaas ko ang shirt niya to expose her breasts then licked her left nipple.
“Uuuhhhhhh ssshhhiiiitttttt hhhhoonnnnn”
I slid my right hand pabalik sa legs niya then down to her butt. Dahil sobrang iksi ng shorts niya, di na ako nahirapang ipasok ang daliri ko sa laylayan ng shorts niya and immediately caressed her pussy lips sa ibabaw ng panty niya. She was already wet that time, and upon doing that, she tried to rub her pussy to my hard cock.
“That’s it hon, c’mon. Fuck I miss you.”
“Uhhhmmmm I-I miss you too honey.. Aaahhhhh shit!”
We don’t know how long we were in that standing position but we decided to move sa sofa nila. She pushed me paupo doon, di naman ako nag aksaya ng panahon, hinapit ko agad ang beywang niya, slid my hands sa garter ng shorts and panty niya para mahubad yun. After ko mahubad ang shorts and panty niya, kumandong siya sa akin, I was on sitting/slouching position, kaya siya naman ay halos nakadapa na naka kandong sa akin.
“Uhhhhhmmmmmmmmm I miss your kisses hhooonnnnn”
“Me too honey, I miss you so much. Don’t make me jealous again.”
She did not answer but kissed me torridly. Hinawakan ko naman ang butt cheeks niya, and mashed it. I even placed the tips of my finger sa pussy lips niya para kalabitin at ibuka buka yun. Hinubad niya na ang polo shirt ko, and started kissing me again sa lips, to my cheeks down to my neck. In response, I took some juices from her pussy and played with her butthole.
“H-hh-hhoonnn w-w-whhaaattt are you doing iiihhhhhhh aaaahhhhhh sssooo gggoooodddd”
“You like that honey? Let me play more of your butthole?”
“Ooohhh fffuuuccckkkk”
I continued playing her butthole then back to her wet pussy. Maya maya pa, I slid down at napahiga sa sofa, I removed my cargo shorts along with my boxer shorts brief. I motioned to her to sit on my face. Nang paupo na siya, I grabbed her ass at nilamas lamas yun until I guided her to have her pussy in my out. I started licking her, and she started to moan.
“Ooohhh ffuucckkk ang sarap hooonnnn sshhiiiitttt” I continued licking her wet pussy then.
“Iiihhhh ssshhhiiiitttttt aaaahhhhhh aaahhhhhhhh” napasabunot na siya sakin at diniin pa niya lalo ang ulo ko sa pussy niya. She tried reaching for my hard cock by her left hand at hindi naman siya nabigo. Tinaas baba niya kamay niya and started to masterbate me slowly which made me moan while licking her pussy.
“Ohhh shit! Ang sarap ng vibration hon! Please moan further aaahhhhhhh” sinunod ko naman ang gusto niya and she started to grind her waist.
I slowly started to tongue fuck her and sobra naman siyang nasarapan dahil sinasabunutan niya pa ako.
“Aaaaahhhhhhh iiihhhhhhh aaaahhhhh ssshhhiiittttttt hhhooonnnnn” nanginig ang katawan, sign that she reached her orgasm. Napapaliyad pa siya at napahigpit pa ang kapit niya sa cock ko that time.
After savoring her orgasm, I tried to lick her again, pero pasundot sundot lang, to taste her cum as well. She stopped me kasi sobrang sensitive pa niya. When I did not stop, napa moan ulit siya pero tumayo na din siya agad agad at lumuhod sa carpet. Pumwesto naman ako paupo, I already know what she was about to do, she will suck my dick. I removed her shirt at inayos naman niya ang buhok niya. Inabot ko ang buhok niya so I can hold it for her.
“Aaahhhh sarap mo sumubo hon.” she started to suck my dick, then iluluwa niya so she can lick my shaft and the head.
“Ang laki talaga ng cock mo hon. Uuummm ummmrrrmmmm uurrmmmmm”
“Yes, suck it hon, subo mo pa.”
She continued doing it, sucking it then lick the shaft and head, habang nilalaro niya ang balls ko. Napapatingala ako sa sarap ng ginagawa niya. Maya maya pa, I tapped her shoulder kasi baka labasan ako sa ginagawa niya. Tumayo siya and leaned towards me to kiss. Sobrang hot ng kisses niya, she would even put her tongue inside my mouth, then sisipsipin din niya yung akin. Di na ako makapaghintay, so I guided her pakandong sa akin.
“Uuuuhhmmmppppppp” ungol niya ng ikiskis ko yung ulo ng cock ko sa pussy lips niya para magbasa pa.
Nang maibuka na ng ulo ng cock ko ang pussy lips niya, she hold her left butt and spread it para bumuka pa ang pussy niya.
“Sssoooo bbiiiggg hon aaaahhhhhh” ulo palang napapasok ko at todo ungol na siya.
She tried to move, up and down para maka adjust ang pussy niya sa cock ko. Even though we have made love several times, lagi niyang sinasabi na hindi pa siya masanay because malaki daw ang akin, mataba. I would always joke her na, ako ang naka virgin sa kanya and yet her remarks it was as if marami na siyang na try, nanonood din naman daw siya ng porn.
“Ooohhhhfffuuucccckkkkkkk aaaahhhhhhhhhh shit hon, feeling ko lagi akong nababanat sayooohhhmmmmm”
“Do you like it? Masarap ba cock ko hon?”
“Yes honey, I’m so full.” kinapa kapa niya pa ang puson niya.
Siya na ang unang gumalaw, she slowly grinded sa ibabaw ko then saka siya mag atras abante. I started to mash her boobs din, while she was doing it. I was really turned on seeing her reaction, nakapikit, nakatingala and containing her moan. While looking at her, I licked her nipples, which triggered her to moan louder at mapasabunot sa akin.
“Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhh ssshhiiiiitttttt”
Itinuloy ko na sa pagsubo ng boobs niya, salitan, left and right. I embraced her waist so she can slowly move up and down.
“This really is soooo gooooddd honey aaaahhhhhhhh” sabi niya sa akin when she started moving up and down.
Tinulak niya ako sideways para mapahiga sa sofa, she placed her two hands on my chest para sa balance niya and she started to move na parang hinete ng kabayo.
“Oh fuck uuhhhh ooh fuck hon fuck” Inalalayan ko din ang pwet niya to help her move up and down.
“Shit honey ang sarap ng pussy aaahhhh”
“Uuummmmmm my pussy feels good hon aaahhhhh”
“Tangina hon ang sarap, fuck. Fuck. come fuck my cock more hon”
“Oo hon, I’m gonna fuck it more shit ang sarap aaahhhhh”
Binilisan niya ang rhythm niya sa pagtaas baba pa sa ibabaw ko, I can feel her pussy juice sa hita as it may have spread sa singit at legs niya.
“Aaaahhhh aahh aahh aahhh shit shit aaahhh fuck hon shit aaahhh I’m cumming!”
“Sige lang hon shit, ang dulas mo. You’re so wet fuck”
Nanginig siya ulit at napadapa sa akin, which in return, I kissed her. Hingal na hingal siya after reaching her climax, I know I needed to cum, medyo masakit na din ang puson ko. Pinatayo ko siya at pinaluhod sofa, I’m gonna fuck her doggy style.
“Uuuhhhmmmmmmm sooo gooodd your cock is gooodddd ang sarap hon ahhhhhh” ungol niya nang maipasok ko na sa pussy niya ang cock ko.
“Shit Im getting hornier hon.” sabi ko sa kanya, ang ganda kasi ng likod niya, ang kinis, at bilog na bilog ang butt. I started to ram her from behind.
“Oohhhh ssshhhiiiittttt sssoooo deep hon aahhhhh more please aaahhhhhh”
“Yes hon, I will fuck you more!”
“Aaahhhh hhaarr–aaahhhh aaahhhh haarr–aahhhh shiittt” di niya matapos tapos ang sasabihin niya, I kept my fast phase fucking her. I can see as well na puting puti na ang kahabaan ng cock ko that time, ang dami niyang nailabas na.
“Fuck hon fuck shhiitttt aaaahhhhhh harder hon, deeper please!” agad ko naman siyang sinunod. I even reached her clit to play it. Napa arko nalang ang katawan at
“OOHHHH SSHHIITTT Hon! FUCK!” nilabasan siya ulit. I continued fucking her, because I can feel it already. I am cumming as well.
“Fuck hon, I’m cumming, I can feel it.”
“Comeon hon sshhiiiitttt I feel like aaahhhhh cumm-oohhhh cumming again aaaaahhhhhh”
Nauna siyang nanginig, and I made another three more thrust, at saka ko pinaputok sa butt niya ang cum ko. Pareho kaming hinihingal at that time at napayakap ako sa likod niya.
“I love you honey” ang sabi ko sa kanya.
“I love you more. Only you hon.” napangiti nalang ako sa sagot niya sa akin.
Nagpahinga lang kami saglit at saka kami nag shower. Damn, wala akong extrang damit that time, kaya same clothes lang din. Siya naman, nag oversized shirt lang siya. We spent the rest of the day cuddling, watching movies from cable, at ipag luto siya ng dinner. Kinagabihan, doon na niya ako pinatulog and we spent the whole night fucking again on her bed. Kinabukasan, bago ako umuwi ay ganun din, we’d fuck after the morning shower, then before lunch, we’d fuck sa kusina at dining table. After lunch, we’d fuck again sa sala ulit.
On a regular day, after ng school, lagi niya akong ipinag sho shopping ng damit, kahit hindi ko kailangan. Yun na ang stress reliever niya, kaya tinuruan ko din siyang humawak ng pera niya, dahil laging nauubusan. We’d still fight, we’d still fuck after fight. Laging ganun, at hindi naman ako nakaramdam ng pagkasawa sa ganung routine, because after our fight, iniiwasan na namin yung mga bagay na pinag awayan na namin. We have grown together, akala ko kasi, baka short lived lang ang relationship namin, because we were both alphas. Walang gustong mag back down. Pero I learned how to compromise, and she learned how to listen carefully.
I think we were already a year and a half, when that fateful day happened. Nawala siya na parang bula. That was the very event that haunted me repeatedly for the next two years. I thought it was just any other normal day for us. Sweet siya, galante at todo asikaso. We even had our steamy lovemaking. After the day na hinatid ko siya sa Cubao dahil pupunta siya ng Paranaque daw, di ko na siya na contact. She wouldn’t answer my SMS, my email at hindi ko na ma contact ang phone niya.