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Nagising ako, madilim pa. I think it was only four in the morning. I decided na bumangon at pumunta ng shower room, I am still naked. Pagbalik ko sa kama, Lanz was facing to her left, meaning, di siya halos gumalaw ng ayos from the moment she hugged me bago siya nakatulog. I can see her peaceful face, sleeping through the moon’s illumination. Ang ganda padin talaga niya. Minsan napapaisip din talaga ako if bagay ba talaga kami from two years ago. Papasa siyang model or pang pageant.
My gaze slowly went through her neck, arms and breasts. Her left leg was in crossing position, at napansin ko na nakalitaw ang umbok ng pussy niya. I took a towel, binasa iyon at pinunasan. Nang makabalik akong muli, di ko na natiis, I positioned myself sa bed, and licked her pussy slit up and down, slowly. No reaction from her. I tried moving her, para mahiga siya, I tried lifting her left leg paangat so I can have better access sa pussy niya.
I kissed her left leg inner thigh, paangat sa kanyang singit. I did the same with her right leg. After doing so, I licked her pussy slit, slowly from bottom to up. I did it twice before licking her clit. After a few strokes, I felt that her pussy started getting wet. I reached her right nips and rolled it until manigas yun. I pinched it when I felt na naninigas na.
“Uhhhmmmmmmm” I heard her soft moaning, at nang mapatingin ako, she was already looking at me.
“I’m sorry, I couldn’t help it. I felt the urge to lick your beautiful pussy, Lanz.”
“J-just g-go on Liaaaaaahhhhhhhhh” hindi na niya natapos ang sasabihin niya nang magpakawala siya muli ng ungol.
I continued licking her wet pussy when she reached for my head and pinaaangat niya ako. I obliged, when our faces met, she kissed me hotly. She even licked around my lips.
“Li-Liam, Honey…”
“Hmm?”
“Can you please fuck me from behind. Let’s do the spoon position please.” ang pakiusap niya sa akin. I smiled and we kissed again.
I positioned myself on her left at tumalikod na siya sa akin, at iniusli pa niya ang butt niya. I rubbed her butt cheek, ang kinis talaga. She reached for my hard cock, and rubbed it on her wet pussy. Maya maya pa ay pinasok ko na siya.
“Aaaaahhhhhhhhh sssoooo ggoooodddd Liiaaahhhhmmm.”
“Yes aaahhhhh ang init sa loob mo, ang sarap.”
Binabad ko muna ang alaga ko sa basang pussy niya at di muna ako gumalaw. I kissed her nape at nilamas lamas ang suso niya. Para siyang pusa na naglalampong.
“Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh” ang halinghing ungol niya at napasandal pa siya sa likod ko when I started to thrust slowly.
I fucked her slowly, as if ayoko munang matapos kami, because I really don’t know that time, kung baka last time na yun. As much as possible, gusto kong namnamin siya. Matagal kaming nag fuck sa ganung position until we came.
“Wag mo muna hugutin Liam, please.” ang sabi niya after ko masaid ang cum ko sa loob niya.
“Okay. Ang sarap ng ganito Lanz.” at saka niya ako hinalikan.
Nakatulog kami na nakapasok ang cock ko sa wet pussy niya.
Late na kami nagising, and I took a shower first. After ko makabihis ay dumiretso na ako sa kotse bitbit ang ibang gamit na namin, at buti nalang wala kaming masyadong dala. Pinaandar ko muna ang kotse para lumamig sa loob. I parked the car sa valet parking at muling pumasok sa loob para antayin si Lanz. Upon seeing her, napangiti ako, she’s beautiful. She was wearing short shorts, crop top. I stretched out my hand and held her hand palabas ng resort.
Late night na kami nakabalik ng Manila, at matagal din ang byahe namin. Marami rami kaming napag usapan habang nasa daan, mas open ang communication namin. Masarap padin siyang kakwentuhan, sobrang intellectual. Beauty, brains and body. Deadly combination ito and something to fear.
Kinabukasan, pagka uwi namin ay pinuntahan ko na yung firm na inapplyan ko months ago, and was so happy na natanggap ako. Agad ko itong sinabi kay Lanz, at ganun din kay Ari. For the next few days that week ay healthy ang communication namin ni Lanz. We’d text each other and call. Parang katulad ng dati. Aaminin ko that time na namiss ko yung ganung moments naming dalawa. Within those days na magkausap kami ay gini gauge ko ang sarili ko din. Pinili ko talagang hindi muna makipagkita sa kanya to check kung bang uubra nga ba na mag work.
I realized na we really have grown apart, in actuality that time, hindi rin issue kung magkausap kami or hindi. Kung magkita kami or hindi. That only meant na hindi pa ako ready sa ganung klase ng relationship, kahit na mahal ko padin siya. I even asked Ari to meet me, para kunin ang opinion niya. Nagkita kami sa Greenbelt para mag lunch.
“So, kumusta naman ang naging lakad niyo?”
“Okay naman din. I mean, sakto lang.”
“Kwento ka naman sakin.”
Kinuwento ko lahat ng nangyari simula nung get together namin at yung naging bakasyon namin. I even told her about our escapades. No holds barred, and I trust her na maiintindihan niya kami pareho.
“So she wants to work it out this time, pero ikaw ang gusto niya mag decide padin. Tama ba?”
“Ganun na nga.”
“And what do you think about it?”
“To be honest, I think, we were only clinging sa past namin. We just wanted to correct what could have been.”
“Okay. Mahal mo padin siya. Yun ang alam ko. Was it not enough?” napaisip ako muli doon, and the looping questions that I had, bumalik lahat.
“You are thinking na kung bang worth it pa ba na itry?” ang tanong niya ulit sa akin. Napatingin nalang ako sa kanya.
“Now I know your worries. Natatakot ka at hindi ka ready kung ano ang kahihinatnan if you will try it again.”
“Liam, may mga bagay na hindi kayang ma outweigh ng love. But everything is worth it, especially kung willing kayo parehas.”
“Naging segurista ka na ngayon. Yun ang nakikita ko. If sinasabi niya sayo na she will help you na makapunta ka ng US, that’s good. So ano ang pumipigil sayo this time?” muli akong napatingin sa kanya. Not sure kung ano nga ba talaga.
“Liam, do you love her?”
“Oo, mahal ko padin siya.”
“Mahal na mahal mo?” I was taken aback, I have to check. Do I?
“Haist. You don’t love her the way you loved her before. You really have grown apart Liam. Nalungkot ako bigla.”
Siya na ang sumagot sa akin. I have confirmed to myself as well, what we have now is just a memento of what we used to. We were no longer the Liam and Lanz of the past. We do really have grown apart.
“You love her, hindi mawawala yan kahit na mag asawa ka na. She will always have a special place in your heart, Liam.”
“It’s okay Liam. Wag mong pilitin just because ayaw mo siyang masaktan. I know she will understand your decision. She loves you.” ang nakingiting turan sa akin ni Ari at hinawakan ang mga kamay ko. I was calmed down by her words.
I know what to do. Naglakad lakad pa kami after namin mag lunch ni Ari sa Greenbelt. Naisip kong imeet si Lanz ng kinagabihan. I checked my phone and saw her missed calls and messages. Nalungkot ako muli, that time, my decision was completed. I know it is gonna be another heartbreak for us, pero kailangan naming pagdaanan.
I called Lanz that night. Hindi niya ako sinasagot, naisip ko tulog na siya until she picked up my call and told her na nasa labas ako ng bahay nila. Maya maya pa ay lumabas na siya at nakapantulog na nga siya.
“Hi.”
“H-hey, Liam.”
“Are you asleep, did I disturb you?”
“Not yet, but I am about to sleep na din. Why are you here, let’s go inside.”
“Lanz, can we talk? Now?” hindi ko siya matitigan ng diretso.
“S-sure. Do you prefer na dito tayo mag usap?” ang tanong niya sa akin. Hindi rin ako sigurado, but may be, it would be best to talk about it kung san nagsimula ang pagmamahalan namin.
“Can we…go…somewhere else?”
“H-huh? Where? I mean at this time of the day? It’s already ten…”
“Uhm, yeah you are right, balik n…