And this is a true story of how I was used by a bully girl, and liked it.
This happened 15 years ago, way back in my third year high school days. I was a transferee then from a renowned high school that time. My mom and dad had separated and because my dad resigned from his job then and was on the process of seeking another one, I had no choice but to live with my mom in her province.
I apologize in advance for the stereotype, but these were the days when you came from a big city, and you moved in to the province, you are instantly famous there. Rich. Beautiful. Sikat. And Matalino.
I wasn’t claiming that I was one. Especially the “matalino” part! God knows I sucked in Academics. Big time! Especially in Filipino and Mathematics.
But I think we all have our own fair share of high school vanity at least once in our lives. And as you know, madaling pabilugin ang mga dalagitang kagaya ko noon, so those things went inside my brain, inflated my ego into one gigantic balloon.
And these were also the days when the image of cool kids were not about fashion or aesthetics, but rather on how tough a kid was. So basically, ito yung panahon na sobrang daming gangs, and gang wars ng mga kabataan noon.
Even though I took the entrance exam and submitted my disappointing grade card from my previous school, I admit that those were just “formalities”. The truth was, the principal during that time was my uncle, and so I was automatically assigned in Section A (the highest section), populated by incredibly hardworking and intelligent youngsters. I know hindi ako magsusurvive, and given the kind of reputation I had as I enrolled, mejo nakakatakot yung expecation if sa section A ako, so I begged my uncle to place me in Section B instead.
Two sections lang ang third year noong batch namin. And section B is a mixed of students who were evidently hardworking but you could see that their hardworks were not enough to move to Section A, students who were really bright but didn’t give a single fuck about those subjects, and gangsters. A lot of gangsters.
So, normally, pipiliin mo makisama sa mga hardworking students. Kasi nakakatakot yung mga gangsters. And totoo nakakatakot. Kaso later on mababait pala yung mga gangster na boys (yung mga pasaway sa klase).
Gangster boys dati was soooooo far from Daniel Padilla’s version of a gangster. They were not trying to be handsome (God! they were not handsome) BUT they were incredibly polite to girls. You can punch them sa shoulders, and they would laugh it off and still call you boss or madam. Pero of course di mawawala yung bibiruin ka, they’ll make fun of you, pero alam nila saan lulugar.
Because mediyo naging famous ako sa campus, maraming gusto makipag friends sakin, for various sort of reasons (I don’t know), and marami ring mga naging “haters” ko.
Isa sa mga naging matinding hater ko is yung Tres Baryos na grupo (composed of gangster women), most of whom were already in their fourth year.
‘di ko actually alam ano naging kasalan ko sakanila, as I wasn’t even aware of their existence until sinabi sakin ni Joan (classmate ko) na magingat daw ako kasi baka magulpi daw ako ng mga Tres Barrios.
Simula noon always akong may kasama pauwi, preferrably may kasamang male, but most of the time si Joan at si Mary-ann companions ko.
And everytime na palabas kami ng gate, nakikita ko na nakatambay yung Tres Barrios dun sa may waiting shed, tabi ng malaking balete. Mga siguro ilang meters lang sa entrance sa school.
At duon tinuro sakin ni Joan ang leader ng group nila. Si Klang klang. Pero Kristine ang totoong pangalan.
At doon palang, sa the way she glared at me, alam ko si Klang Klang ang may issue sakin. May galit sakin. And mga kasama niya nakisabay nalang din ng “hate” sakin just because their leader loathed me so much.
Alam kong di nila ako magalaw-galaw kasi palagi kong kasama si Joan. Ang Ate mismo ni Joan, si Ate Desa (Short for Desiree), ka-miyembro nila, and kumbaga kanang-kamay ni Klang klanng.
‘Di ko maintindihan ang galit sakin ni Klang-klang.
Noong mga sumunod na araw, Joan told me when she asked her sister one night about this growing enmity, Ate Desa mentioned something about “Chris” and “chocolates”.
So, ayun, dun ko na deduce ang totoong reason. Chris was our senior in high school. He was an officer during that time. Nagkakilala kami sa church, and there were times na nakikita kami magkasama (especially pag papunta sa church), and there was this specific time na binigyan ako ni Chris ng chocolates. Maraming nakakita noon, so mejo nagstir ng commotion during that time. But of course we clarified later on na church mates lang kami and friends.
But while everyone accepted it and moved on with their respective lives, Klang klang believed that it was all lies.
It turned out that Klang klang had a massive crush on Chris. And She saw me as a major threat to her vulnerable treasure.
When volcanoes are spurting lava, it only means that it is about to explode. It’s just a matter of time.
So, ayun, nagstart yung overt tension, noong everytime papasok ako sa sa gate on my way sa classroom, and nakatambay sila sa may tindahan. They would call indirectly insult me, like saying “bakit kaya ang daming pokpok sa mundo?” and many more.
Of course, di ko masyado pinapansin. Until dumating sa punto na tinapunan ako ng juice (na nasa cellophane). Basang basa ako. And nagdilim paningin ko. Sobra na. Di ko na kaya. Makakapatay ako ng tao.
I just hoped na sana naging pasensyosa pa ako. Kasi what happened afterwards really changed my life.
So, ayun kinonfront ko sila. Sabi nung nagtapon, si Maya, yung basuharan daw yung ini-aim nya, di daw nya sinasadya na matamaan ako.
Ayun, those “reasons” made me even angrier, and so I continued berating them, until I felt a sudden force sa cheeks ko, and the next thing I knew, nasa ground ako.
Sinuntok ako ni Klang klang. Her expression was that of pure malice and content. So, ayun I lunged myself at her, grabbing her hair, kasi yung lang skill-set ko. huhu.
Sanay sa suntukan si Klang klang. Kaya I was overpowered. Walang guard na naka-standby noon (how convenient -_-)
Dumating yung isang teacher namin at inawat kami.
Klang-klang: humanda ka mamaya! gulpi ka sakin.
Ako: (because dala narin ng galit and I was really tired of being bullied) Ngayon na! dun tayo sa dam site, doon natin ituloy! Baboy ka!
So, silently, we moved out from the school presmises and went around the campus, towards the dam site. Yung dam site was literally covered by huge trees so tago talaga sha.
Pagdating namin duon sa may sentro, inside the dam, tinuloy natin. And my only strategy that I could think off that time was to shave her head clean. So I was about to pounce her, when she sent a powerful kick sa tiyan ko. Sobrang sakit! Napaluhod ako, at di makahinga.
Klang klang pulled my hair backwards, opening my suffering face to her other fist. And gulpi muka ko.
Dugo. Blackeye.
Tapos pinahiga niya ako. At pumatong sha sakin. At sinakal ako. I knew just by her expression, that she was about to end my life.
Buti nalang nagmakausap si Ate Des. Ayun, nag cool off kaunti si Klang-klang. At nilapit nya muka nya sa nagdurugo kong muka. Eye to eye. At binantaan ako.
Everytime daw na magkita kami sa school, magba-bow daw ako sakanya, at tatawagin ko shang boss.
Noong di ako makarespond, sinampal nya ako.
SAGOT!
Di parin ako nakasagot.
SAMPAL.
SAMPAL.
SAMPAL.
SAGOT!
Tumutulo na luha ko, at di ako makahinga. At masakit tiyan ko.
Oo.
OO, ANO?!
Oo, Boss!
Pwe! Talsik laway nya sa buong muka ko. And she rubbed her disgusting saliva all over my face.
Yung nakita nya na nadiri ako. Sinampal nya ako ulit.
Nadidiri ka?
Sampal!
Mas nakakadiri ka! POKPOK!
Pa church church kapa pokpok ka!
Sampal!
Diri ka?!
Bukas mo bunganga mo!
Sampal!
Bukas, dali!
Dahan dahan kong binuksan bunganga ko.
Nilapit nya bibig nya, at slowly spit inside my mouth.
Lunukin mo yan Gaga ka!
At tatlong beses nya inulit sakin yun.
Natikman ko ang demonyong saliva ng bruhang yun.
I hated her that time. I wanted to end my life that time. I wanted to kill her.
But actually that was the start ng pag bloom ng aking kalibugan.
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P.S.: Even today. Everytime na reremeber ko yung na tuturn on ako. Close nakami ni Klang klang and babaeng babae na sha kung kumilos at manamit. (Although im not sure if babae ba talaga sha by heart) Kasi nung minention ko na natuturn on ako pag naalala ko yun, we booked a hotel, and had sex. HAHA