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Nung niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit, lalo nya ding siniksik ang katawan nya sa’kin. Tapos pinatong nya yung arm nya sa arm ko. Wala kaming imik imik, basta positioning lang to get as comfortable for us as possible. Alam ko hulas na sya at that time, so alam na nya what’s happening right now. Again, I wasn’t concern if it was gay or not, my concern was for us to get comfortable, plus I was enjoying the being with someone at that time. Also, during post-sex with my past experiences, I always felt na napaka-fragile ng mga babae tuwing katabi ko sila. I know they can take a beating and pounding naman in terms of sex (I don’t beat my partners just to be clear lol you get the point), pero I just feel na if I roll over sa kama, there’s a good chance na madadaganan ko sila. Pero with Roy, I mean, his softness reminds me of a woman’s skin, pero I know naman that I’m not gonna break him when I move my body during sleep. So, just that feeling ease me into sleeping with him. Plus I like hugging plushy pillows as a kid so it’s all good.
We fell asleep.
Sarap talaga ng feeling ng comfort of not being alone in bed. I never once thought na this was gay. I mean, he’s my friend, he’s straight and I’m straight. How could we possibly end up being gays? Hahaha, right? Well, it turns out, being gay isn’t really about having sex with a guy. It’s more of like falling in love with the person. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not falling for him right now. But, I do like the moment we were in.
I woke up to the soft breaths tickling my mustache. Then I noticed a large peice of pata naka outstretch sa bewang ko and naka hook sa pagitan ng hita ko. And yes, yung kaliwa ko’ng hita, naka sandwich sa dalawa nyang naglalakihang biyas. We were both tangled with each other, and our face was really close.
I smiled. I liked this…. this… mess that we’re at. Kailangan na namin gumising. Tanghaling tapat na. (I sound like an old man there, hahaha tanghaling tapat. lol) I signed a little loud, and did that hugging-stretching thing again, and surpricingly, he hugged back. Our face were pressed against each other… I mean, our whole body pala, our whole body were pressed with each other. Naka T-shirt pa ako nun sa so medyo tamed pa yung situation. I think it would have been a lot different I was also in my boxers.
Nakapikit pa ako nun. I enhaled deeply. I know na naka tingin sya sa’kin. Minulat ko yung isang kong mata, and I saw both his eyes staring right through mine.
I smiled. Sobrang namula sya nun. I thought it was really cute what we had right then at that moment. I didn’t necessarily thought he was cute, the situation that we were in was cute. I mean, he was cute, but my feeling was more towards us being in that moment.
I didn’t talked. I just smiled. Then when I felt na talagang hindi uuna si Roy mag disengage, ako na umuna. Tinapik ko yung kaliwa nyang pige, tapos sinabi ko “pataas naman nitong pata, kinakain na nyang puwit mo hita ko ay.”
“Gago, anong pata?” Napatawa ako. Then I naturally slipped my legs away from his thighs and did an actual stretch while next to him.
“Tangina na mo, sobrang lasing mo kagabi, mag bukas lang ng banyo di mo pa magawa.” Sabay tawa ko ng malakas. Namula sya. Ginulo ko yung buhok nya. “Tangina, tayo na dyan. Tanghali na. Ikaw mag hugas nung mga pinggan.”
Hindi sya sumagot, pero naka-ngiti sya. Bumangon sya tapos dun sya sa gilid ng kama ko nag stretching. Bumangon na din ako, tapos pinalo ko kaliwang pigi nya.
“Aray, puta. Kung maka palo naman, wagas.” Tumawa lang ako.
“Ang lambot ay. hahaha” Sabay pasok ko sa banya tapos ihi. Nakakalat lang yung shorts nya sa sahig, and merong mga pee stain droplets. I went to the sink and then gargle. Pinulot ko yun tapos nilagay dun sa hamper nya sa loob ng banyo. Paglabas ko ng banyo, nandoon sya sa kusina naghuhugas na ng mga dayagin, naka boxer briefs.
Then ko lang talaga sya really tiningnan. I mean like, really checked him out. I’ve seen him this way before, being in his boxers, doing chores, but this time, this was the first time I really looked at him and see his features. What his back looks like, how thick and fat his legs were, how tight his boxer brief was hugging his butt. He had a really wide back. He wasn’t really like yung rounded na chubby guy, his body was defined pero yung tone nya was exagerated with fat. I like his sillhouette.
I sat down again on our couch. Just trying to get some peace again before starting the day. I’m not sure how long I was like that, pero nung nagkaulirat na ulit ako, naka higa si Roy sa tabi ko, and inunan na naman nya yung hita ko. Then just like last night, I played with his hair.
Then he talked, “hinugasan ko na yung mga dayagin ha. Baka naman may reklamo ka pa.”
“Wow ha, ako na nga nag asikaso sa kanya kagabi, tapos gaganyanin lang ako? Wow ha,” pabiro kong sabi.
“Ulol, feeling mo naman.” Alam ko pabiro lang ‘tong lahat. This part I know about him, and like I said before, magaling akong makisama, so I know how to repond to these jest. We talked for some time about last…