Hi there. Just call me Aya. I’m 34-25-36. A wife and mother of a son. I’m in my early thirties. I’ve been married for 9 years to an OFW, Steve (not his real name). And I’m here to tell my story of how I ended up betraying my marriage. How I started walking the path of an unfaithful wife. It’s something I never thought na gagawin ko sa buhay ko.
I think I should start with some background about us.
Steve and I were churchmates. Nakilala ko siya through a close friend. But we didn’t have a relationship until later in our College lives. Actually may hesitation ako before sagutin siya since part siya ng circle of friends ko. Paano pag hindi nag work out? What if maging messy yung break up namin if ever? Ang awkward naman pag ganun. I had questions to myself like that. Kaya nung napansin ko na dumidiskarte na siya sakin, I stopped him. We were young back then. Nag explain naman ako sa kanya kung bakit. He took it well naman.
Steve comes from a religious family. My family is religious too but not as mush as Steve’s family. Marami families sa Pinas na religious di ba? Actually pag nakita mo si Steve you would’t be able to tell at a glance that he is a religious man but he is. Hindi siya yung innocent kung tignan.
Strict parents ko pag dating sa boys when I was growing up. That’s also because unica hija ako. May curfew pa nga ako before when I was in high school. Strict sila pero may mga times naman na pinagbigyan nila ako to go out with my friends as long as may contact sila sa akin at friend/s ko. And they did allow me to go overnight sa house ng mga trusted friends ko. Particularly yung mga naging churchmates ko. Happy din naman ako sa church group since my close friends, my friends from high school, were there too. Actually they are the main reason why I joined a church group which made my parents happy. I made many precious memories with them. Even now we are still friends.
I didn’t have a party life even back when I was in College. I’m talking about clubbing. That was fine naman since my parents still let me go out from time to time and drink alcohol as long as I was with the right friends. But no bars, clubs. Speaking of College, that’s when my parents started to loosen up about my curfew. Around early second year of my college life.
When it comes to relationships naman, naging patago ako back in College. Hindi talaga alam ng parents ko. College was when I lost my virginity. Nag enjoy din ako na patago ako nakikipag sex back then. I should mention na even though magkakaibang College kami before, my churchmates and I still met each other when we have the time. Steve was there too. And I had a friends with benefits relationship with a senior in College. Both of us were single at the time. The secrecy of it all made it so hot. And I thought that was the hottest thing I could experience. It was during my later years in College that Steve courted me the second time. Around that time he already looks handsome. He was cute before but he became handsome. He developed well. What I love about him the most is how romantic he is. He really treates me like a queen. I could tell and feel that his attention was really on me every time we are together. It was a really wonderful time back then when we were dating. There was so much kilig. He was so happy na sinagot ko siya. I also heard from a male friend before na ako yung laman ng bibig ni Steve everytime na lasing ito. I was really turned on by that. There are other girls he could have chased. He’s handsome so he definitely could have had them but I’m the only woman in his heart based on what I heard and felt from him. Kaya sobrang big deal nung naging kami na. We recieved full support from our friends and family.
My Mom and Dad allowed me to go out whenever I want as long as I was with Steve. Be it an outing or overnight at a friend’s or Steve’s house. I love those times. When it comes to sex naman, I enjoyed doing it with him a lot. Even in sex he’s romantic and he could really satisfy me. I could feel his passion, longing and love for me. This was prior to my infidelity.
4 years into our marriage, we were working everyday,doing what married couples do. And then I got pregnant. Was it planned? Sort of. And because of that I took maternity leave. But when my son was born, I felt this feeling na I wanted to be with him everyday. I wanted to take care of him by myself. Because of that I quit my job. It was fine naman since almost bayad na yung bills namin sa family house. Steve could handle it but I did work again later on.
I suppose I should mention yung feelings ko before I betrayed my marriage. Boredom, curiosity and impulsiveness. I mean, being a housewife for 3 years can be tiring. So to take care of the boredom, I started working again. But it feels like being stuck in a loop. Ganto na lang ba whole life ko? I do feel bad saying this but there is this feeling of my life being monotonous, mundane. Add to that the lack of sex when Steve started working overseas. It’s fun and warms my heart seeing my son grow up but something was lacking in my life. I could feel it deep down. After we married, we immediately planned to buy land for our house. We wanted a big house but not a mansion. Big so it could become a family house. We wanted many rooms for our future children. We bought land in a “province.”
I can say now na deep down I needed spice in my life. And that spice came in the form of betrayal and depraved lust. Before talaga, feeling lang siya deep down. I did feel guilt and shame at the beginning because my husband has only ever been loyal and loving to me. He is a great provider. We never had any trouble financially because of how hard working he is. He started working as an OFW when our son was 3 years old. He makes so much even now.
After my son was born, we had to visit my Mother-in-law and Grandmother-in-law every weekend. Our house was still being constructed at the time so were staying at my parents’ house. And now let me introduce Kuya Leon. Kuya Leon has been with Steve’s family for more than 13 years na. Actually he’s almost like a family na to Steve’s family. Sa tagal ba naman niya sa kanila. He almost seems like an Uncle to Steve’s family. A well trusted man. He’s a driver, handy man, guard for my Mother-in-law and Grandmother-in-law. Matanda na si Lola-in-law so kailangan na ng helpers around the house. Other than Kuya Leon, may maids din. Kuya Leon is also a driver sometimes for Steve’s relatives if he can. But mainly for Lola siya for going to the hospital for check ups. And because of that I barely saw him before. But we started to see each other a lot more than usual due to my weekly visits to Mommy and Lola. And during those times I did notice him checking me out from time to time. Even dati pa before kami ikasal. I ignored it na lang because I understand naman na men will always look to women that attracts them. It’s a natural thing. An instinct. As we say, boys will be boys. And it’s not like he was the first man to check me out. But that’s all he did. Sneak glances at me. He never did try to touch me inappropriately or talk to me in a flirty, dirty way. He did give me that look as if he was undressing me. It happens when it was just him and me in the car but he was always polite and respectful naman kapag magka usap kami. But I know na he wanted me talaga. I could feel it if a man wanted me. I noticed na maingat din siya sa mga nakaw na tingin niya sa akin.
There’s actually a good reason why Kuya Leon is a trusted man to Steve’s family. It’s a sensitive topic and I think I shouldn’t mention it. Let’s just say na he proved himself worthy for the trust placed on him.
Let me describe him nga pala. Matangkad siya, moreno, buff ang physique niya. He’s buff and it’s just the right amount of buffness. His body is not what I’d call a bodybuilder’s body but it really does look good. His face looks rugged which suits his physique.
Now, let me start how it all started between Kuya Leon and me. Just this January 2022. The stars must have aligned for him that day. Nandun kami ng anak ko sa house ni Lola. That time wala si Steve. Nagpa plan pa lang siya umuwi from overseas. Morning yun and I forgot to lock the door ng CR. My lakad kasi ako nun so kailangan ko maligo ng maaga. So bali after kong maligo nag papatuyo na ako sa may pinto when all of a sudden may nagbukas ng pinto. Yup, it was Kuya Leon. Mabilis ko naman natakpan yung katawan ko ng towel pero I was sure he had en eyeful for a second of my birthday suit. Sinara niya agad yung pinto na ni lock ko naman tapos nag sorry siya sa akin. It was an honest mistake so I didn’t make a big deal out of it. That was also the first time na nangyari sakin yung ganung bagay and it certainly had an effect on me. Something awakened inside me. Siya dapat magda-drive sakin that day pero nagbago isip ko dahil sa nangyari. Nag sorry ulet siya nung nagkita kami and I told him naman na it’s fine. Wala siyang mali.
Because of what happened, naalala ko yung curiosity ko. Mga naiisip ko before na what if. What if pag bigyan ko ang isang guy na may pagnanasa sakin? It’s not just Kuya Leon who desires me but because of that exciting mistake, he became the subject in my fantasy. There are guys din naman na nagcha chat sakin sa messenger but meeting someone from socmed in person is very dangerous and risky nowadays.
Later that day, naiisip ko talaga yung nangyari nung umaga. As in yun talaga yung main topic sa loob ng ulo ko. I was surprised to think na I didn’t mind that Kuya Leon saw me naked. Naisip ko pa nga what if hindi siya nakapag pigil sa nakita niya? Nakaka curious na ang sarap i-imagine. Here is when everything escalated. Tomorrow morning, I had this impulse. I was alone going home from a friend’s house. Yung house namin ni Steve. I was supposed to head back to Lola’s house but because of that sudden impulse I didn’t. I had other plans. Our house was empty at the time. It’s as if the stars aligned for us. That it was meant to happen. I then texted Kuya Leon to pick me up and I had a favor to ask. He asked what time? I said now na. I had this feeling talaga na I wanted him to see me again in the nude. I wanted to show off my birthday suit more to him. Oh, he’s lucky guy alright. I waited with bated breath.
Nag park si Kuya Leon pag dating niya and I was wearing a silk nightdress na ikinagulat niya since I don’t wear this kind of clothing around others. I was already feeling a little aroused then. I asked him na kung pwede niya bang tignan yung AC namin sa master bedroom since ayaw mag ON, kunwari, habang naliligo ako. I could see on his face na excited siya. I was excited too. I told him to come upstairs after a few minutes. My gosh! Grabe talaga yung tibok ng puso ko that time. Sobrang kinakahabahan ako.
I wasn’t really taking a shower, I did that earlier, and was already waiting in my birthday suit. I heard him entering our room. My god talaga that time. My heart was pounding like never before. I was nervous yet that was what made me aroused so much. And then I heard Kuya Leon say that it’s working just fine. So I did the next step, I asked him to bring me the towel I had forgotten to bring on the bed. Narinig ko yung knock niya and invited him inside.
OMG talaga yung moment na yun. I was completey naked in front of him. My nipples are already erect and I was dripping down there. Add to that that I was fertile, it was an intense arousal that drowned my morality. Yeah, I’m horny when I’m fertile. I don’t take pills when Steve is away and only take a month before he comes home. The risk involed talaga that time. Sobrang nakaka arouse.
Kuya Leon stood there. The disbelief on his face was clearly visible. I loved it. Having this sort of effect on a man older than me. I was in the point of no return. There was silence. The two of us were waitng the move of one another. What was gonna happen next. We were staring at each other’s eyes. Intense. He must have known I was feeling nervous since my breathing was deep and so was he. Then he slowly walked towards me. My heart skipped a beat. We didn’t stop our intense gazes at each other’s eyes as he was walking to me. His object of desire. I swallowed my saliva. Then he’s right in front of me. I knew it wasn’t right but I needed it. I wanted to. So I leand my head towards him for a kiss. I kissed him. It took him a few seconds to kiss back. He then grabbed the sides of my head to k…