Kaya naman habang nakadapa siya sa akin ay hindi ko muna siya niyakap upang manumbalik ang kanyang wastong pag-hinga at panatag na tibok ng kanyang puso. xxx
Pinagapang ko na lamang nang marahan ang dulo ng aking mga daliri sa kanyang likod at batok at minasdan ang mukha. xxx
Liz regained her strength and crawled up to caress me. I still could not believe that the object of my obsessive fantasy had just finished having an orgasm on top of me and kissing my lips. xxx
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Chapter 9
After her last orgasm on top of me, Liz rolled on my side, cuddled with me, and fell asleep. So, I left her room and let her get some more rest. It’s her day off from school, anyway.
Nagluto na ng almusal ang maid namin na si Amy (Amylin Cortez) kaya paglabas ko sa kwarto ni Liz ay dumeretso ako sa dining room. Sa loob pa lang naman kasi ng kwarto ay amoy na amoy ko na ang freshly brewed local arabica coffee. Nagluto si Amy ng favorite ko na scramble eggs, pork and garlic longanisa, garlic fried rice, at spicy vinegar na sawsawan.
Of course, my usual weekend breakfast tasted better that morning, and I was thinking of Liz habang sinumulan kong inumin ang mainit na kape. Usual din na mag-isa akong kumakain ng breakfast kapag weekend dahil Liz has her own schedule. Though, sometimes magkasabay kaming kumain, but more often, we don’t eat together.
Habang nagkakape pa lamang ako, tinitignan ko yung mga pictures ni Liz sa cellphone ko. I was browsing on the pictures taken a long time ago, noong nagstay ulit kami sa favorite naming Resort kung saan nagstart ang relationship namin ni Rebecca. Gayun pa man, madaming beses kami nag-staycation ulit doon with Becca and Deth, even after Becca relocated to her father’s province.
Becca and I have an unlabeled relationship. We never officially broke up, but our romance did not blossom into a long-term relationship kaya hindi kami magkasama sa isang bahay. Maski ganun pa man, we never stopped caring for each other and kept communicating because we have a daughter. Also, I own and provide the house where Becca and Bernadeth have been staying in the province.
Of course, in the beginning, Jessica was surprised that Becca became pregnant. But Jess had accepted it since she never had a right to complain. At that time eventually, when both of them were pregnant, we all lived together in our house with Liz. The situation was unavoidable because Rebecca was scared or embarrassed to stay in their home, and I would never abandon her when she became pregnant. The circumstances made us all work things out for the benefit of Liz and the babies.
When Bernadeth was born, she and Becca stayed in our house for two years, which was excellent for Liz because she bonded with Bernadeth. Jessica was not bothered and had no reason to complain, anyway. Jessica, Rebecca, and I agreed that we settled our differences and that everything we all do and decide will always be in the children’s best interest.
After lumipat sa ibang province si Becca at Deth, we, the four of us, meet at least twice a year so that Deth and Liz could spend time together. Nevertheless, during summertime and holiday breaks, alternate mag-bakasyon ang dalawa: two to three weeks si Liz kina Becca and two to three weeks naman si Bernadeth dito sa bahay.
One summer na magkakasama kaming apat, including Becca, ay nag-stay kami ulit sa dun sa Resort where Bernadeth was likely to have been conceived. During one of our stays at the Resort, Liz was xxxxx years old, and I took a picture of her while she was resting on a hammock.
That was the picture showing on my phone nang bigla na lamang may yumakap sa aking balikat at leeg. Liz said, “good morning,” kissed my right cheek and placed her jaw and neck on my right shoulder. The chair’s backrest only goes up to my mid-back, so when her chest was pressed on my back, I felt her breasts and noticed that she was not wearing a bra.
Nakita niya ang phone ko and she asked me in a tender and baby-talk manner, “bakit mo tinitignan yang picture ko?
“You know naman kung bakit,” sagot ko naman.
“Ano yang tinitignan mo dyan?” Tanong niya ulit at ramdam ko ang init ng kanyang pisngi sa aking mukha.
“Ikaw baby.”
“Hmm, tinitignan mo yung xxxx ko no?”
“Kase naman, nakalantad ka dyan,” as I was referring to the picture.
Natawa siya, “nakatulog yata kasi ako.”
“You remember how old were you at this time?” ang tanong ko sa kanya habang nakatingin pa din kaming pareho sa phone.
She paused, thought for a while, and said, “I think xxxxx.”
“You look almost the same, baby.”
“Tumangkad naman ako, no.”
I agree naman, but I added, “hmm, virgin ka pa talaga dito.”
“Pero look at me,” Liz was also referring to the picture.
“Well, I see you…” sabi ko naman, and not sure what she’s pointing out.
She looked around before she whispered to me. After she whispered something, sabi ko naman, “kitang ko nga,” at natawa kaming pareho.
I could smell her minty breath habang magkadikit ang aming mga pisngi. I turned my head towards her left cheek and kissed it. But she also turned her head, so we kissed on the lips. We both softly moaned, “hmm,” “hmmm…” as we savored each other’s mouths. Her moist lips were slightly sucking my lips, and her small tongue felt tensed as it touched my tongue and lips.
We only stopped kissing when we heard the screen door open, separating the dining area and the second kitchen. Pero hindi naman kaagad kami kita dahil sa dining area there’s still that part of the wall covering the whole dining table.
After few seconds, pumasok sa dining area si yaya Aida (Loida Benitez) ni Liz. Nakayakap pa din sa aking likod si Liz nang tanungin siya ni Aida kung anong gusto niyang breakfast. She told her yaya that she’s doesn’t know yet kaya dumeretso na lang sa laundry area si Aida.
I pulled the chair on my right side and placed it next to mine. Umupo dun si Liz at isinandal ang kanyang ulo sa right shoulder ko. Nakasuot siya ng dark blue na t-shirt kaya hindi halata o maaninag ang mga suso niya. Nakasuot din siyang ng light golden yellow na maiksing shorts.
At nahanap na rin niya sa wakas ang kanyang sandals.
Pagka-upo niya sa aking tabi ay halatang inaantok pa din siya at humikab habang ang mga magkadikit niyang palad ay naka-ipit sa pagitan ng kanyang hita at dikit sa kanyang pundya. Lumingon ulit ako sa kanya at hinalikan sa left forehead. Lumingon naman siya sa aking at ipinunas ang kanyang mga mata sa manggas ng aking damit para matanggal ang luha sa mga mata pagkatapos niyang humikab.
Imbis sa balikat ko siya sumandal ulit, inakbayan ko siya kaya napasandal ang pisngi niya sa right chest ko at sa kaliwang kamay ko na lamang hinawakan ang coffee mug. Saktong dumaan si Amy na papunta sa second kitchen at napansin niya si Liz na nakasandal sa akin.
“O, masama ba pakiramdam mo Liz?”
“Okay lang ako ate,” ang malumanay niyang sagot.
Pero nilapitan siya ni Amy at idinampi ang palad sa noo at sa kanang leeg ni Liz.
Buti na lamang at ang kaliwang parte ng leeg ni Liz na may chikinini ay nakaharap sa akin.
“Medyo mainit ka yata. May lagnat ka ba?” Ang tanong ni Amy.
“Hindi naman,” sagot ni Liz habang nakasandal pa din sa aking dibdib at naka-ipit pa din ang mga palad sa kanyang mga hita.
“Hindi ka pa naman nag-memens,” and concern na komento ni Amy.
Kabisado kasi ni Amy ang menstrual cycle ni Liz dahil paminsan minsan, ngunit hindi kadalsan, ay sumasama ang kanyang pakiramdam during her period. Hindi naman sobrang malala ang dysmenorrhea ni Liz pero minsan kase hindi siya makapasok sa school kaya pinagluluto at inalagaan siya ni Amy at Aida. At kahit hindi naman kadalasan ito, ina-anticipate pa din nina Amy dahil maalaga sila kay Liz.
“Hindi pa ako ‘magmemens,’ diba. Medyo napuyat lang ako kagabi,” paliwanag na lang ng anak ko.
Satisfied na okay naman si Liz, tumuloy na lang sa kusina si Amy. She might be wondering na since hindi naman masama ang pakiramdam ni Liz, bakit siya nakasandal sa aking dibdib. Maski kasi close kami ng anak ko, rarely nilang makita na maglambing sa akin si Liz nang ganito.
Though not really concern, idinampi ko din ang right palm ko sa right cheek niya habang nakasandal ang face niya sa chest ko.
“Medyo warm ka nga yata.”
Feeling lazy, she just shrugged her shoulders. So binitawan ko yung coffee mug at ipinasok ko ang mga left fingers ko sa right armpit niya.
“Iyyy, dad,” ang agad niyang protesta dahil nakikiliti ang aking dalaga. Pero inipit niya lang din naman sa kili-kili niya ang kamay ko.
“Medyo maligam-gam ang kili-kili mo. Fertile ka yata,” ang casually kong sinabi sa kanya.
She raised her head and looked at me. As we looked at each other, neither of us said any word, although we were both aware of the possibility. If she’s fertile, we’re aware of the implication if the probability would turn into reality. However, there was neither sign of worry nor a trace of concern in her eyes.
As I stared into her eyes, I slid my right hand out from her armpit and cupped her right breast over her shirt. She took a deep breath upon touching her breast, and she closed her eyes and exhaled slowly when I gently squeezed it. Her mouth was waiting, so I kissed her while I rubbed her breast. For a moment, though, I thought of the possibility that, someday, a small pair of lips would be nursing her nipples.
When we heard the sounds of slippers nearing towards us, we fixed ourselves, and I grabbed my coffee mug. Dumaan lang ulit si Aida at mukhang busy siya sa paglalaba at may dalang mga hangers at bitbit ang isang box ng Tide powder detergent. Aida asked again kung anong gusto niyang kainin, pero Liz said wala pa siyang ganang kumain. At dahil dun, deretso ulit sa laundry room ang yaya niya.
I know she’s alright, but I instinctively asked her, “are you okay?”
“Mmm, not really.” Muli siyang naghikab at ipinunas ulit ang mga mata sa manggas ko.
Though I knew she was okay because she was with me the whole night, I wondered what else could have happened and asked her, “what’s wrong, hon?”
She lazily turned her head to see if someone was around, whether Amy or Aida before she placed her mouth to my right ear and whispered, “minolestya kasi ako ng sarili kong ama.”
She then lightly bit my middle deltoid and softly chuckled.
Feeling relieved that she’s feeling alright, natawa din ako at biniro ko siya, “iyang katawan mo naman kase…tsk, tsk.”
She turned her head and rested her upper back and head on my right shoulder. She was facing away from me—and looking up in the ceiling—when she asked, “ano?”
I turned my head to face the back of her head and also whispered, “katawang masarap gahasahin.”
She removed her left hand between her thighs and playfully pulled my hair, “manyak ka talaga, itay!”
She again placed her hands near her crotch and idly leaned on my right shoulder.
“You’re still sleepy, buti bumangon ka na kaagad?”
Pumihit ulit siya at ipinatong niya ang kanyang chin sa right shoulder ko, “wala ka na sa tabi ko, eh,” ang malambing niyang sagot.
“Ow, sorry. Sige, I won’t leave right away next time.”
Habang humihikab ulit siya, “okay lang. I know you have stuffs to do today,” said Liz, then she faced me and pouted both lips.
I kissed her nose first, then her lips. Liz parted her mouth, and we again Frenched kissed. Ang sarap talaga ng kanyang lasa. Minty na may pagkabubble gum dahil sa toothpaste niya or mouthwash. However, iba ang reaksyon niya sa akin.
“Hmm, lasang kape ka.”
“Mapait ba?”
No sugar no creamer kase ako.
“Hindi naman.”
“You don’t like it?”
“I like it. Iba lang kase may halong coffee.”
“Anong lasa?” Tanong ko kaagad.
Her eyes rolled to the side, checking again if someone was nearby before she said, “lasang daddy,” and she giggled quietly.
“Ano ba ang lasa ng daddy?”
“Ay, ewan ko.”
“Do you want to know?”
“Paano?”
“Edi tikman mo?”
“Alin, iyang kape?”
“Hindi.”
“Ano?”
“Yung creamer ko?”
Liz playfully bit my right cheek with her lips, “ihahalo ko sa kape?”
“Tikman mo yung puro.”
Natigil siya bigla sa aming biruan at parang napa-isip siya saglit bago nagsalita na parang biglang may napagtanto, “mga kapatid ko yan.”
Maski antok pa siya ay natawa kami ulit pareho, ibinaling ko naman ulit sa kanya ang biruan at paglalambing ko.
“Ikaw, alam ko ang lasa mo, baby.”
“Ano?”
“Masarap.”
“Anong masarap?”
“Yung laway mo.”
“Ano pa?”
“Yung pekpek mo.”
“Anong lasa ng pekpek ko?”
I noticed that her thighs were slightly moving and squeezing her hands.
“Matamis at malinamnam.”
“Sige, tikman mo ulit mamya,” na meron pagka-excited sa kanyang boses na mahina.
“Ngayon na,” sabi ko naman.
“Punta tayo sa room ko?” tanong naman niya, and I was a bit surprised of her eagerness.
“Dito na lang.”
“Dito, dad?” na medyo pabigla niyang tanong.
“Oo.”
“Makikita tayo nina ate.”
“Just use your finger,” mungkahi ko naman.
“Akala ko kase tatanggalin ko shorts ko at papaupuin mo ako sa lamesa.”
“That would have been better,” sabi ko naman.
“Maybe next time, I’ll sit at the table.”
“Then you’ll spread your legs, and I’ll eat your pussy.”
Halatang kinilig siya at tila lalo pang pinipisil-pisil ng mga hita niya ang mga kamay niyang naka-ipit dun.
“You want to taste me now?”
“Yes, baby.”
We looked and listened to see if anyone would walk in. Then, I looked down at her crotch as she spread her thighs and inserted her fingers into the lower opening of her shorts. Napa-angat ng kaunti ang pwet niya from the chair as she wriggled her finger inside her skimpy apparel.
“Wala kang panty?”
“Wala, dad,” habang kinakapa pa rin niya ang loob ng kanyang shorts.
I felt more aroused upon knowing that she was not wearing a panty. She then pulled out her index finger and placed it in front of my mouth. I saw her finger glistening and covered by her juice, so I knew she was aroused, too. I took her finger with my mouth and sucked it.
After tasting her flavor, I said, “ang sarap mo talaga anak.”
“Talaga?”
“Hindi mo pa ba natitikman?”
“Hindi pa,” at may kaunting pagka-curious sa boses niya.
“Sige, try mo,” suggest ko naman.
Appearing convinced, Liz again reached inside her shorts, inserted her finger insider her pussy, pulled it out, and put it in her mouth. Saktong subo-subo ni Liz ang buong daliri niya ng pumasok si ate Aida niya. Nanlaki ang mata ni Liz at nabigla kaya hindi niya natanggal ang daliri niya sa kanyang bibig kaya nagulat din si Aida.
“Uy, gutom ko na yata,” sabi ko kaagad to break the awkward situation.
Dun palang tinanggal ni Liz ang daliri from her mouth, at pa-simpleng nagrequest na lang orange juice kay Aida. We both laughed pag-labas ni Aida to get her drink.
Liz then looked at me, still embarrassed, and said, “ganito pala ang lasa ko.”
“And I like it,” compliment ko naman.
“I don’t have any reference, dad, pero ikaw madami ka nang natikman, diba?”
Liz asked me casually, and it seemed it was not a big deal for her that I had girlfriends after being with her mom and Rebecca.
“Yes, but yours is my favorite.”
She teased me and said, “Hmmp, binobola mo lang ako!”
“No, baby. I really like your taste and smell, and I’d like to eat you again.”
She leaned on my right chest again, “sige, kainin mo ulit ako mamya, no.”
“Oh, I love to, honey.”
After a momentary pause, napaisip siya muna saglit bago niya inihayag ang nasa isip, “ano kaya lasa ni Stella?”
“You really like her?” And I asked her in a very supportive manner.
“Nagagandahan nga ako sa kanya.”
“So, crush mo siya?”
“I guess, so.”
“That’s fine, babe.”
“Thanks. I’m glad you understand.”
“I’ll support you if you like her.”
“So, you think I’m bi?”
“It’s hard to tell unless you desire and pursue a girl.”
“I thought about it.”
“I would not discourage you, anak.”
“Well, I’m not preoccupied with the idea. Naisip ko lang minsan.”
“Okay. But in case you ended up in that situation, being with a girl, just be guided with your feelings.”
“Embrace it?”
“Sure. Meron bang nanliligaw na girl sa’yo?”
“Hmmm, meron. Pero, I’m not attracted to them.”
“Ganun naman talaga. Either straight or bi ang isang tao, kung hindi attracted, wala naman silang magagawa.”
“Maybe nagagandahan lang talaga ako kay Stella.”
“Siguro ganun nga lang. Simple crush.”
“Hindi kase ako na-aatract sa tomboy.”
“What do you mean.”
“Well, I respect their choices, and I could be their friend, pero kapag nag-popormang lalake at nag-dadamit lalake na yung girl, hindi ako attracted.”
“I see. Walang potential na romantic feelings?
“Kinikilig naman ako kapag nalaman kong may gusto sila sa akin.”
“But no physical attraction?”
“I guess no, dad, and before I’d even consider being with a girl na nag-poporma at nagdadamit lalake, I’d rather be with a straight man.”
“That’s fair to say.”
“Just being honest.”
“Yung type mo ay girl na girl pa din ang appearance.”
“Yah, like Stella.”
“Malay mo ganun din si Stella.”
“Na ano, dad?”
“Well, I’m not sure if Stella is bi or lesbian, pero what if gusto niya din yung girly appearance like you.
“I don’t know kase. Sana…” na may kaunting hopefulness sa boses niya.
“Nagkaroon na ba siya ng boyfriend?”
“Alam ko hindi pa, eh.”
“Did she mention her crushes?”
“Yah, but I thought that’s normal for us in our age.”
“But you knew her since highschool, diba?”
“Pero hindi naman kami mag-kaklase nun at iba yung mga close friends niya sa highschool.
“College lang kayo naging mag-buddy?”
“Yes, dad.”
“Just enjoy your friendship and company with her. If madevelop kayo pareho, then that’s fine with me.
“Thank you, dad, for being so understanding,” and she kissed the side of my lips.
“I love you unconditionally, anak.”
“I love you, too.”
There was again a momentary silence before I asked, “Do you imagine kissing her?
“Hmm, she has beautiful lips, but I never thought of kissing her until you asked me.”
“I see. Do you like to, you know, lick her, too?”
“Yung pepe niya?”
“Yah, would you eat her?”
“Hmm, maybe?”
“Maybe?”
“Oh, aaah, yes, pero still clueless about it.”
“Do you feel aroused about the idea of eating her?
“Hmm, yah.”
“Would you let her eat you?
“If she would? “Mmm…Yes.”
“Do you feel aroused about the idea that Stella’s eating you?
“Yes.”
“Honey, you could be a bi-curious or a bi.”
“Maybe I’m just curious.”
“Well, you could already be a ‘bi’ since having actual sex is not confirmatory of preference.”
“Kung sabagay.”
“Either way, I’m fine with it,” guaranteed ko naman sa kanya.
“Thanks again. But I just want to be with you right now, dad.”
“Me, too, and I’m glad that we talked about it, so it’s something that we both can anticipate.”
“No surprises, kung baga?”
“Something like that. And when you start to like another man, let me know, too, and I’ll understand.”
“That’s impossible, dad.”
“Thanks, anak. You’re so sweet. But just in case lang naman, and don’t say never. Kase kung magiging masaya ka, as your dad, I’ll support you pa din.”
“I understand what you’re telling me, so instead of saying ‘impossible,’ I’d say it’s ‘very unlikely that I will fall in love with another man.”
“If you ever will, you can always come back to me, sweetheart, if things did not go well.”
“I will always come back to you, dad.”
“I’m glad to hear that.”
“Remember you said that daddy should be number one,” Liz reminded me.
“Yes anak, and daddy won’t be jealous of your husband or lover and you won’t be cheating on me because I’m confident of your love.”
“At saka dad, I won’t be cheating on my lover when I’m with you because you only loaned me to him.”
“Or her,” I added.
“Yah, because, you own me daddy.”
Liz pulled her hands from her between her thigh, turned towards me, and embraced my neck. I was overwhelmed by her affection and felt an unmeasurable joy.
Bukod pa dito, napagtanto ko din base sa aming pag-uusap na kahit na meron kaming pisikal na relasyon, nangingibabaw pa din ang pagmamahal ko bilang isang ama. Gayundin, kahit gustung-gusto ko siya bilang isang kapartner, handa akong pakawalan siya kung sakaling makakita siya ng iba.
At isa pa, sometimes, thoughts running in my mind na ikakasal din siya someday: picture taking sa hotel kung saan siya mag-bibihis; pinapanood ko siyang naglalakad sa aisle patungo sa kanyang magiging asawa; at pagkatapos ay isang festive yet elegant na reception kung saan ay masaya siya.
Bilang ama, nais ko pa din na maranasan ni Liz ang isang mahalagang milestone sa buhay kung gugusithin niya dahil maski labis ang aking pagnanasa at kasabikan sa kanya, ayaw ko din na labis na maging makasarili ako at maaring maging hadlang sa kanyang kaligayahan.
Kahit na “mag-break” at matapos ang aming pisikal na relasyon ni Liz ay masaya naman ako dahil hindi naman pangkaraniwang ang ganitong sitwasyon at mapalad lamang ako at ito’y aking naranasan. Wala naman bagay na pang-habang buhay at kuntento na rin ako kung sakaling bukas or sa makalawa, magwakas ang lahat ng ito.
Siguro, dahil kung ikukumpara sa mga ordinaryong magkarelasyon, kahit na mapunta siya sa ibang lalake o babae, hindi naman ako magiging isang ordinaryong “ex” dahil hindi pa rin magbabago ang papel ko na bilang tatay niya. Kaya kahit kung magkarelasyon pa siya, maaari siyang bumalik sa akin anumang oras kahit wala or maski meron pa siyang boyfriend o asawa.
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Maski busy sa pag-lalaundry si Aida, duty-bound talaga siya na paka-inin ang alaga niya. Maski able and efficient naman si Liz, no one should blame me for spoiling her inside the house kaya may yaya pa din siya. Maski household chores din ang general tasks ni Aida, siya ang personal assistant ni Liz sa loob ng bahay.
“Anong gusto mong almusal?” tanong ni Aida sa muling pagbalik niya sa dining area pero walang dalang orange juice. Naka-set na rin naman yung washing machine kaya pwedi na siyang magluto muna saglit.
“Ate, pwedeng corned beef na lang?” Habang nakasandal ulit siya sa right shoulder ko.
“Eggs, gusto mo?”
“Fried, ate.”
“Ilan?”
“Dalawa, well-done please.”
“Okay sige.”
“Yung orange juice ko?”
“Oo, nga pala.”
“Ay teka, ate. Time out, wag muna.”
“Wag muna?”
“Huwag ka munang magluto.”
“Sigurado ka? Matagal pa naman matatapos yung laundry ko sa washer.”
“Yes, ate. Sure ako.”
I listened to them but was not precisely minding what they were talking about until Aida left the dining area.
“Dad.”
“Ano yon?”
“Ikuha mo ako ng orange juice,” ang malambing niyang request at may kasamang yakap. I looked at her, and she tried to enchant me with her puppy eyes.
Of course, I gave in. But after I stood up to get her orange juice, she leaned on the table on her elbows, her cheeks and chin on her palms and said, “paki-luto mo na din please yun corned beef and eggs.
I was more than willing to make all her requests. Napangiti si Liz when she saw me smiled and willing. Lumapit muna ulit ako sa kanya, at habang wala ang maid at yaya, I approached her. She raised her head to meet my kiss.
“Sige, wait mo ako diyan,” at nang palakad na ako papunta sa second or common kitchen, sabi niya, “dad, dito ka na lang magluto,” referring to the main kitchen, which is part of and adjacent to the dining area.
I knew exactly na nag-lalambing si Liz that morning after we first made love. I did not mind and was happy to cook for her with the same care and affection during the many other weekends I cooked for her.
So, I took all the ingredients from the pantry and refrigerator and started preparing her breakfast. Fortunately for me, meron mga maids na maglilinis at maghuhugas ng mga paglulutuan at gagamitin ko.
Liz enjoyed watching me work, and we talked as I cooked.
“So, what’s your plan today, dad?”
“Just relax with you, and maybe go to the gym this afternoon.”
“You’re not riding today?”
“I do my bike ride on Sundays.”
“Ay, oo nga pala.”
“Are you going to study this weekend?” Tanong ko naman.
“No, kakatapos lang ng midterms. Easy days next week.”
“I see, so what’s your plan?”
“I want to stay here, too, pero I promised pala kay Yssa (Maria Luisa, her step-sister by Jessica and Roland) to go to her tennis game today.
“Maglalaro kayo ng table tennis?”
“Hindi, dad. She plays lawn tennis.”
“Really?”
“Yah, she’s been competing sa mga junior games.”
“What time do you have to be at the game?”
“Around 3 pm pa naman.”
“I can give you a ride.”
“Thank you, dad, pero susunduin nila ako?”
“Nina mommy mo?”
“Sina kuya Raymond, ate Patricia, ate Daniella.” (Roland’s children with his real wife).
“Hindi kasama mommy mo?”
“Tito Roland is not feeling well, so sasamahan lang siya ni mommy sa bahay.”
“Okay. I pick you up nalang, after.”
“Sige, dad.”
“What time ba matatapos?”
“Simultaneous naman yung mga games, so around 7 pm tapus na yung games niya.”
“Sige, I’ll shower sa gym after akong mag-work out, then sunduin kita.”
Pagkatapos kong ihapag ang pagkain sa lamesa, I kissed Liz sa forehead and said, “enjoy you breakfast, sweetheart.”
“Thanks, dad,” at yung ngiti niya ay parang nagsasabing “ayos ito, ha!”
I saw satisfaction on her face, “lalo ka yatang ma-spospoiled nito,” biro ko sa kanya.
She rounded or flexed her shoulders forward, held her laughter, and looked at the food on the table.
I sat next to her to eat my breakfast, too, but I noticed her just sitting and looking at me, so I wondered kung bakit hindi pa siya nagsimulang kumain.
“Lalamig na yang corned beef mo,” paalala ko sa kanya.
“Subuan mo ako,” ang bigla niyang request sa akin.
I thought it was so sweet for her to ask at maglambing pero biniro ko muna siya, “aba pinagluto na, susubuan pa!
“Iyy, subuan mo ako,” pilit ni Liz sa akin as she playfully stomped her feet on the floor and feigned to have a tantrum.
Pag-bibigyan ko naman talaga at susubuan siya pero naisip kong biruin muna siya kaya umupo ulit ako sa tabi niya at kinuha ko ang kutsara at tinidor.
Natutuwa siyang pinapanood akong hiwain ko ang egg, dumukot ng corned beef at friend rice sa kutsara. Hawak ko sa kaliwang kamay ang kutsara at nang naka-angat na ito sa harap ng bibig ni Liz, ibinuka niya ang kanyang bibig. Pero bago ko ilapit ang kutsara na may pagkain, sabi ko, “sige, subuan kita, pero sabay tayong maligo, pagkatapos.”
Napa, “Aaa?” siya at napabuka lalo ang kanyang bibig. Nanlaki din ang mga mata niya dahil wala pa siyang ideas sa mga common activities ng mga couples, maliban sa dating, touching, kissing, and love-making. Pero mabilis maka-gets si Liz at kunwaring nag-aalangan, “Aaa, okay, I guess…” at sinubuan ko siya para kumain.
I flashed my eyebrows once or twice habang pinapakain ko si Liz to tease her. She pretended to be nonchalant as she playfully shook her head from side to side, rolling her eyes while she chewed her food. Her hands were again on the side of the chair, like when she sat when she was a little girl during our dinner with Becca at the Resort years ago. Pero dahil abot na ng mga paa niya ang sahig, instead of swinging her legs back and forth like when she was a child, she just bounced her thighs side-to-side.
I had to eat, too kaya salitan na susubuan ko siya at ako na gamit ang isang kutsara. Nang saktong susubuan ko ulit siya ay napadaan si Amy at nakita niya kami.
“Aba, aba, ang seniorita nag-papababy,” ang kantsaw ni Amy kay Liz.
“Baby pa naman ako,” depensa ni Liz.
“Yung panganay, nagpapaka-bunso,” asar ulit ni Amy.
“Pag ako lang, ako ang bunso,” giit naman niya.
“Malapit na bakasyon, sana dito mag-bakasyon si Deth,” pahabol ni Amy.
“Dito nga siya this summer,” confirm naman ni Liz.
Kapag nasa bahay si Deth, kung paano alagaan nina Amy at Aida si Liz ay ganun din kay Deth. Pero halos mas higit pa dahil mas bata si Deth kay Liz.
Pag-layo ni Amy mula sa hapag kainan, sinubuan ko ulit si Liz, at habang ngumunguya siya ay sinabi ko naman, “sige, ubusin mo na yan para paliguan ko na ang panganay.” Muntik na siyang masamid sa sinabi ko kaya mahinang sinuntok ako sa braso.
Kapag ako ang susubo, pinapakita ko sa kanya ang mabilis kong pag-nguya para kunwari ay nagmamadali akong matapos para makaligo na kami. Kapag siya naman ang susubuan ko, minsan ay kakagatin muna niya ang kutsara bago ko hilain, at ngunguya naman siya ng mabagal para kunwari ay kanyang ina-antala ang aming pagligo.
Kung tutuusin, mahina lang talagang kumain ang aking anak, parang si Mommy Becca niya. Pero mahilig siya sa snacks, like mixed nuts, noodles, and bread.
Pagkatapos niyang kumain, she hugged me for fixing her breakfast and feeding her like when she was little.
I reminded her na, “O, ligo na tayo.”
“Saan, sa bathroom ko?”
Since may sarili din akong bathroom at full-sized pa, “sa kwarto ko na lang,” ang anyaya ko sa kanya.
“Owkiy!” ang sabi naman niya pero nakatingin sa gilid na parang nahihiya.
Nakakatawa dahil pagkatapos naming mag-hawakan, mag-halikan, at sobrang sabik mag-talik, medyo nag-aalangan siyang mag-hubad at kasama akong maliligo. Maaaring hindi kasi siya lasing sa pagnanasa di tulad noong gabi, which was understandable since when sober, one could be hesitant to show feelings or emotions.
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My bathroom has a bathtub and a separate shower space. The shower is very roomy, and two persons could fit and move inside almost unimpeded.
Naked na ako at basa na sa tubig nang napansin kong bumukas ang pinto. Pagtingin ko, nakasilip lamang muna ang halos kalahati ng upper body niya, ang kanyang left shoulder, neck, and head.
Sumenyas ako para pumpasok siya, and when she stepped inside completely, I felt amused to see her carrying a basket-like container, where she placed her shampoo, conditioner, body wash, toothbrush, toothpaste, and so on. Her light blue towel hung on her right shoulder. She’s so charming to watch. Noong maliit siya, meron din siyang maliit na basket that she would carry around. Sa basket niya nilalagay ang mga toys at dolls niya.
Nanlaki na kaunti ang mata niya nang makita niya ang semi-erect kong kargada maski nakita at maski pumasok na sa kanya ito nang may labis labis na pahintulot.
The shower was on at basa na ako sa tubig at may sabon na din ako sa katawan nang buksan ko ang glass door ng shower area para papasukin siya. Inilapag niya muna yung container na dala niya at isinabit ang towel sa metal hook.
Ewan ko ba at nailang pa siya sa umpisa habang nakatingin ako sa kanya. Marahil ay halata akong naghihintay na maghubad siya sa aking harapan. At dahil dito, lalo akong nalibugan.
Habang ako’y nakaharap naman sa kanya, ma-aaninag sa mukha ni Liz ang paglaho nang pag-aalanganin. Napalitan ito nang ngiti at kasabikan nang makita niyang lalo akong tinigasan.
Maiksi ang kanyang shorts at sa ilalim ng laylayan nito ay ang mga toned at makinis na hita ni Liz. Flawless din ang mga binti ng aking dalagang anak. Ang seksi niyang pagmasdan sa kanyang simpleng kasuotan na tila parang napakabata pa niya kumpara sa kanyang edad.
She smiled bago mag-krus ang kanyang mga braso sa harap niya upang hawakan ang bottom hem ng suot niyang t-shirt. Sakmal niya ang laylayan at hinila pataas ang pang-itaas na kasuotan. Unang lumantag ang kanyang tiyan at pusod. Kasunod ang inaasam-asam kong mga tila manibalang niyang utong at suso. She’s so sexy to watch as her neck, head, and hair wriggled out of her t-shirt.
Ako naman ang napakagat labi nang ipasok niya ang kanyang mga thumbs sa waistband ng kanyang shorts. Subalit mas nakakalibog masdan ang kanyang mga mata na biglang nang-aakit habang hinihila niya pababa ang huling saplot sa katawan.
Kagat labi akong napa-iling sa sobrang pagkalugod at paghanga sa pa-hinog pa niyang katawan. Maski nayakap, nahagkan, nasalat, at naangkin ko na si Liz, kakaibang kagalakan pa din ang aking naramdaman nang makita ko siyang hubo’t hubad na naka-tayo sa aking harapan.
I reached out my hand, and my lovely daughter held it as I guided her to walk inside the shower. I tried controlling myself, but I could not resist her young and supple body.
Niyakap ko siya at idiniin ang aking katigasan sa kanyang harapan. Yakap kaming parehong mahigpit nang ha…