After what happened to us at his resthouse, I filed my resignation almost 2 months after that. Because I was already feeling something strange for my boss. It was something that a humble secretary like myself should not be feeling. I always knew the consequences if I still allowed myself to stay. It won’t be healthy for my mental health and self-esteem. I was never the risk taker when it comes to my emotions before. I was young, careless and stupid.
Everyday, ang daming babae na tumatawag sa kanya sa office, and ako lagi nakakasagot. These women are the real deal. Educated, elite, sophisticated and most of them were beautiful. You see, I live in small and yet progressive city. Halos lahat ng tao magkakakilala. At the back of my head, wala akong laban so I have decided not to risk it.
If only sensible convo and kakulitan lang yung laban, baka pwede pa e. But it wasn’t. Ayoko rin kasi ilaban yung alam mo na talo kana from the very start. Masakit din kasi umasa and I knew that my feelings were valid.
He was my boss pero ang hirap kapag ramdam mo na meron kang nafifeel na something special towards him. And I am sure that he doesn’t feel the same way about me. Ang daming nakapalibot e.
Then one day I got a text from someone asking me how I was. The number was not saved on my phonebook. So I asked who he was. It was from Rads. Nagulat din ako that he would go out of his way to ask how I was doing months since I left his company.
Bored daw siya and he was asking me out for coffee. I went and did have a good conversation with him. Sad to say, I had the chance na sana to say how I feel for him pero ewan ko ba, blame all the stupid nerves that comes all over me during that meeting. Pero wala talaga e. Inisip ko kasi wala naman mangyayari, wala na naman patutung…