But thank god there’s books to read, Netflix to watch and occasional chatting with friends. Marami pa ring kulang pero wala naman akong magawa. I know maraming nakakarelate sa inyo sa ganitong scenario every single day.
But life goes on.
For few months now ay wala akong boyfriend. I broke up with him due to irreconcilable differences. He was few years older but shit happens in any relationship. It’s natural na maghanap ako since I’m free and available naman. Yan ang buhay ng isang young professional who lives in a big city.
Aaminin ko na nakakamiss ang sex. I had fun doing it sa mga dati kong partners. But it feels like a history now. Time to move on and find a playmate.
My name is Kim.
I’m in my mid-20s, a bit skinny but sexy. Mahaba ang buhok ko and around 5’2″ ang height.
Am I pretty? I think I am pero mahirap describe ang sarili. Lalong mahirap ang magbuhat ng sariling bangko.
Let’s just say that I’m not exactly a head turner gaya ng mga napapanood na artista pero kapag nakilala mo ako ay mahirap mo na akong bitawan. I’ll leave it to your imagination pagdating sa physical features ko.
Anyway, I’m a liberal person in many ways. I love my freedom and I respect other’s freedom. I never concerned myself with politics, religion or current events. It’s personal. Ang concern ko lang ang sarili kong happiness. Enjoy life as it is. Live as free as a bird.
The past few months of this pandemic ay nakakapagod mentally. I really need sex pero walang available. My toy is already doing overtime.
Ang sarap magpantasya at mag-imagine using my reliable toy. I can cum many times sa piling niya. Ang saya, right?
Wrong.
Kasi iba talaga ang totoo. Pumipintig at ramdam mo ang body fluids ng kasex.
I need to do something.
I need a man!
Then, I found a site and met a guy. We flirted. Had sex on video. Had a bit of fun but I stopped after few sessions. Didn’t last. Nagsawa ako. Hindi pareho ang level namin sa ibang trip sa sex. I can adjust be he can’t.
One thing for sure is that I can dispose anyone kapag hindi na fit sa gusto ko. Kesa naman sa maging baggage ko pa. Ayoko na ng drama. Fun lang at pag wala na ay stop and move on.
Ganyan ako. Natuto na kasi siguro sa mga nakaraan.
Well, after few weeks I met another guy. A lot older but he can level with me. Magaan kausap at hindi pushy. Guys, alam namin yun kaya ingat kayo sa mga estilo nyo.
Marami-rami na rin akong nireject. Personal choice ko yon dahil ang dami dyan na sa simula pa lang may mali na. Minsan hindi lang fit talaga ang personality ng isa’t isa.
Lalo na kapag dishonest.
May mga bagay na alam naman natin na dapat itago since expected na yan sa virtual life. But few things din na huwag mo na ipagkaila lalo na kung married ka na. It’s okay to tell naman ang totoo including your real age.
Anyway, the guy I met ay may kakaibang dating sa akin. He made me comfortable. Masayang kausap. May pagka-old school at maginoong bastos na diskarte. He’s in his 40s. May fetish ako sa older guys. Basta I like them.
Nagtawagan na agad kami after few chats. We’re both adults at di na kailangan magpabebe. Pero walang usapang sex. I thought nga noong una na hindi siya interested sakin sexually very casual lang ang usapan. Siguro dahil na rin sa nasa stage kami na kinikilala ang bawat isa. I liked his style kaya nagclick agad kami.
After a few days ay nagdecide kami na mag-videocall.
Aaminin ko that I feel so slutty that time. I was wearing my silk nighties. Presko kasi lalo na kapag walang suot na bra. I was also feeling horny the past few days kaya siguro ganon. Minsan ang hirap pigilin kasi.
First time naming magvideo call. I was a bit nervous. Hindi naman ako gaanong nag-ayos na. Kung ano ako ay gusto kong makita niya yon. Ayokong magpakyut. What you see is what you get.
Unang beses namin to see each other. He looks fine and just right about his age. He’s dark, around 5’6″ ang height at medyo mahaba ang buhok. Kapareho kong taga Metro Manila although hindi naman kami nagtanungan kung saang city. For now hindi naman yun importante.
Nakahiga lang ako sa bed when he called. I was happy not only na may nakilala akong bago but an older man where maybe I can learn more in many aspects.
Hindi naman ako nagkamali. We really had fun talking to each other. Tawanan at biruan. We’re comfortable na sa isa’t isa kahit papaano.
Then he stopped. Nadidistract daw siya sa posisyon ko sa bed na nakatagilid.
“I can see your boobies”, habang nakangiti niyang sinabi.
He’s cute.
I was so horny and slutty gaya nga ng sabi ko kanina kaya sinasadya ko talagang i-seduce siya hahaha.
He didn’t push. Nagpapahiwatig na nga ako pero he stayed civil pa rin sa akin. (Later sinabi niya sakin na ayaw niya raw mapag-isipan na nagsasamantala o magmukhang manyakis.)
But knowing myself ay lalo kong hinila na kunwa…