The Bad Girl: Chapter 20 – Losing

It was a midsummer’s afternoon.

The sun was shining clear and bright. Cotton candy clouds sprinkled the cerulean sky.

Birds twittered and chirped as they flew from one tree to another.

Warm breeze blew to rustle the lush green foliage. Flowers were in bloom. Their scent filled the garden like perfume, attracting buzzing bees and beautiful colored butterflies, flitting and fluttering around.

The pond’s crystal clear water looked enchanting as it reflected the beautiful golden sun. A mother duck with her ducklings swam around, diving into the water and resurfacing again, shaking their feathers.

In the gazebo, a couple was exchanging vows of living their lives as one.

Rainbow colored ribbons of different sizes were tied at the posts. Various flower petals were scattered all over the white marble floor.

A little girl, holding a basket of flowers, was grinning wildly as she stared at the couple. She was shifting her weight from one foot to another, fluttering her attached butterfly wings. Her braid had almost come undone while playing in the garden earlier, chasing the mother duck and her ducklings. Her princess cut, empire waist dress was adorably askew from her previous mischief.

The groom was dashing in a black tuxedo sans the bow tie and cummerbund. He was wearing a white silk shirt, half of it unbuttoned. He was intently gazing down at his dazzling bride, a solemn expression on his face.

The bride was radiant. She was wearing: a white strapless corset adorned with pearls and flowerets of the palest pinks, yellows, and violets; and a bouffant skirt with layers of chiffon, silk, and tulle in pastel colors. Her hair was gathered in a French twist topped with a crown of pearls and her seven-foot train also had multi-colored pearls sewn in them. She was holding on to a bouquet of wildflowers. Happiness and love was evident on her face.

Matt reached out for Chrissie and they held hands. He grinned and nervously wiped the sweat on his brow before proceeding to recite his vows.

“I’m standing here and I still can’t believe that I deserve you. I wouldn’t be the man I am right now if it wasn’t for you.”

His voice cracked with emotion as he continued, “I thought I was brave, but I found out that it takes more courage to open up to another person. I thought I was strong, but you showed me that it takes more strength to let people see your feelings.”

“And I thought I knew how to love, but now I know that it’s much harder to let someone love me. That someone is you.” He smiled at her.

“You saw into my heart when no one else could and you believed in me. So I’m going to spend the rest of my life living up to the faith you have in me. I don’t have much, baby, but what I have is yours. I’m yours.”

“Baby… I’m not really very good with words, all I know is I love you. And we were meant to be together, forever. What do they say? ‘Til death do us part. But you know what, I don’t think even that’s going to keep us apart…”

Reina gushed as she watched the couple with dreamy eyes. With a sigh, she started having visions of HER wedding….

She was walking down the aisle in a flowing white dress towards the man she will spend the rest of her life with.

Waiting patiently at the altar, the groom turned to look at his wife-to-be with a smile on his face.

Her smile faltered and her jaw dropped when she saw her groom’s face!

SHERWIN XU?!

“It can’t be!!” Reina shook her head vigorously at the vision she just had.

“What the hell was that?” Reina shuddered at the thought. “I can’t get married to him!”

She brought her attention back to the ceremony so as to chase away the horrifying mental picture she just had.

Chrissie squeezed Matt’s hand lightly and voiced her love for him.

“When I was a little girl, I dreamed of loving a man who was brave and strong and true; and a romantic wedding on the water surrounded by the people I love most. I never told that secret dream to anyone, but somehow you found out.” She smiled at him lovingly.

“You gave me that dream. You made it come true.” She caressed his face.

“There’s just one thing that’s different; it’s far more wonderful than I ever imagined. I dreamed of being in love, I never dreamed of sharing my soul. I dreamed of sharing my thoughts, but I never dreamed that someone could hear me without words. In my darkest trouble, in my coldest silence; I looked for you and you were there. I am yours forever. I love you.”

Meanwhile…

Reina was feeling uneasy and restless, aware that Sherwin, even behind his indoor shades, had been staring purposely at her since the wedding ceremony began! It’s not that she minded being stared at; she gets that all the time. But his stare was not just a stare. He was undressing her with his eyes!

She felt her face redden, her nerves giddy, and her body warm, as she felt his eyes slowly caress her body and back up to meet her gaze, a sly smile playing on his lips.

“Will this guy ever stop?” Reina exasperatedly thought.

Sherwin was standing across her in black trousers and maroon dress shirt. His eyes were lightly hidden by the aviator glasses he’s wearing. His long hair was unbound. He was sporting a languid stance as opposed to Reina’s rigid and uneasy pose.

Reina was in a flowing floral halter dress in shades of peach and pink, creating an innocent look, if not for the extremely low cut at the back, which left her sensuous back very bare. Her dark brown tresses were gathered in one side only, held by a dainty flower clip. She just put on what she brought with her, considering she had no idea that she would be attending a wedding nor did she know there would be a wedding!

Tears streamed from Chrissie’s eyes, out of pure happiness, as she and Matt recited…

“Now we will feel no rain
For each of us will be shelter to each other.
And now we will feel no cold
For each of us will be warmth to each other.
Now there is no loneliness
We are two bodies, but there is one life before us and one home.
When evening falls, I’ll look to you and there you’ll be.
And I’ll take your hand and you’ll take mine
And we’ll turn together and we’ll look to the road we traveled to reach this–The hour of our happiness.
It stretched far behind us, and our future lies ahead–
A long and winding road where every turning means discovery
All the hopes, new laughter, shared tears,
The adventure has just begun.”

As much as Reina wanted to deny it, she was envious of the sincerely sweet exchange of promises by Matthew and Chrissie. Her friend found her happiness in him but Reina is saddened because somehow she knows that she had lost her partner in crime.

Her eyes accidentally darted at Sherwin’s direction.

He was still toying with her, smoldering her with his gaze behind his glasses.

Again, Reina’s face flushed at the awareness. Her mind wandered on that hot night they had spent seven years ago; how he would touch the right places, making her want more, igniting her passion…

Her blush deepened as she reminisced. She tried to shake the feeling away.

“God, he’s still at it?! Doesn’t he ever get tired?” she thought angrily.

Reina remembered the incident at lunch earlier….

The clip-clop sounds of Reina’s boots echoed down the whole hallway. Her brisk walk, creased eyebrows, and waving arms indicated her irritation over the situation.

“Damn! Of all the family’s you could end up marrying into you have to choose theirs!” she muttered under her breath.

“They’re Lins for crying out loud!” she went on with her monologue. “No wonder you’re eloping.”

Matt and Sherwin’s maternal grandfather, Lin Jian Hao, happened to be the political adversary of Chrissie’s paternal grandfather, Yan Chengxu. Because of their Romeo-and-Juliet-like circumstances, Matt and Chrissie decided to tie the knot without the knowledge of their families, with the exception of Sherwin of course.

Reina looked around deciding on which turn to take that would lead her to the dining room.

“Fuck! I’m having lunch with that man!” she seethed. “God! Of all people Matt could ask to wit…