After a minute, nakareceive ako ng message na “?” lang ang laman. I texted her “Dan” and she replied “Saved.”. Since yun lang ang reply nya, pakiramdam ko ay wala sya sa mood mag text. Inilapag ko na ang phone ko sa side table saka naman ito muling tumunog. I was thinking it’s Marian. Kinabahan ako nang makita kong si Chezka ang nagtext. Nagdalawang isip ako na basahin ang message but then, what the heck?
Chezka: Hi!
Me: Hello.
Chezka: I see you ‘ve been busy.
Me: Sort of. Sorry I missed your calls.
Chezka: I know you’re not. Otherwise, you could have called back.
Me: Maybe you’re right. Guilty.
Chezka: Of what?
Me: Leaving you hanging after the weekend.
Chezka: Why?
Me: Because I’m busy with someone else instead of you.
Chezka: Tayo ba?
Me: Sinagot mo ba ako?
Chezka: Nanligaw ka ba?
Me: Nagpaligaw ka ba?
Chezka: We’re going in circles.
Me: I know.
Chezka: So?
Me: So what?
Chezka: Where are we?
Me: You tell me.
Chezka: You’re not obliged of anything.
Me: I feel like I am.
Chezka: You’re not.
Me: Then, where are we?
Chezka: Nowhere?
Me: You’re unsure.
Chezka: Yes I am.
Me: Why?
Chezka: Because I like you, a lot.
Me: Damn!
Chezka: Sorry.
Me: Don’t be. It’s not your fault.
Chezka: I know, I still am.
Me: I’m sorry as well.
Chezka: For?
Me: Disappointing you?
Chezka: You didn’t. I’ve seen it coming.
Me: Then why still go for it?
Chezka: I took my chances.
Me: Speechless . . .
Chezka: Again, you’re not obliged.
Me: I don’t know what to say.
Chezka: Kayo na?
Me: No.
Chezka: Niligawan mo sya?
Me: No.
Chezka: Then I’ll take my chances.
Me: Please don’t.
Chezka: Why?
Me: Just don’t.
Chezka: Because you like me too?
Me: Enough please.
Chezka: I’m not giving up.
Me: Please do.
Chezka: NO!
Me: Goodnight.
Chezka: Goodnight baby. See you later.
Di na ako nagreply. Baka humaba pa ang usapan. Di ko na din naman alam kung anong isasagot. This is chaos. Hitting 2 birds in 1 stone is supposed to be a good thing. But hitting 2 pussies in the same office is not. I mean, I like fucking Chezka. She turns my fantasies into reality. Yeah, it’s all about sex with her. Things I was not able to do sa mga babaeng nakakantutan ko. She likes hard fucking. She likes dirty talks. She likes it nasty. She’s likes being a bitch. She’s willing to do it in public. She likes it kapag may thrill. If you’re a man who thinks with your dick, which I am at times, then she’s the perfect match.
With Arrianne, sobrang iba. It’s not just sex. I don’t know what it is but it’s different. It’s like I want to take things slow when we kiss. I want to her feel every bit of my meat inside her. I want to make her moan when my cock comes in and out of her pussy. I want to fuck her with passion. I don’t even know if it’s possible. Para bang hindi sya yung kabastos bastos na babae. Sya yung tipo na gusto mo satisfied muna sya bago ang sarili mo. Gusto kong masaya sya, nasasarapan sya at makakaraos sya nang maraming beses bago ako labasan. I’m not sure if I’m making sense. Ang alam ko lang, malaki ang pagkakaiba nila. Hindi ko kayang ipaliwanag ang lahat, namimiss ko si Arrianne. I called her hoping she’s still awake. After 2 rings, she answered.
Arrianne: Hello!
Me: Hi!
Arrianne: Bakit gising ka pa?
Me: Hindi pa kasi ako tulog.
Arrianne: I know, why?
Me: Asan ka ngayon?
Arrianne: Nasa bahay. Why?
Me: Matutulog ka na ba?
Arrianne: Not yet, why?
Me: May kasama ka dyan ngayon?
Arrianne: Wala, nasa Bulacan sina mama. Why?
Me: Samahan mo nalang ako dito.
Arrianne: Why?
Me: Para may kasama tayo pareho.
Arrianne: Why?
Me: I miss you.
Long silence.
She hanged up.
Di ko alam kung mali ba ang sinabi ko. Di ko din alam kung dapat ko ba syang tawagan uli. Na carried away ako. Di ko alam kung saan galing yun. Damn! Stupid! I’m messing things and I don’t know how to fix it. Sa lahat naman nang isasagot ko, I miss you pa talaga ang nasabi ko. I covered my face with my pillow and tried to shout as loud as I can. Even myself cannot accept my own stupidity. Tumunog ang phone ko, it was Arrianne. “I miss you too. I’ll be there.” Napatayo ako sa kama pagkabasa ng message at parang bata na nagtatatalon sa tuwa.
Parang Pasko at natanggap ko ang pinaka magandang regalo. It took me 2 minutes to recover at nakangiti pa din ako ng magreply sa kanya na hihintayin ko sya. Saka ko naisipan na ayusin ang kama at maligo. Na conscious ako bigla sa itsura at amoy ko. After the cold shower, I brushed my teeth and gargled some mouthwash para sure na fresh breath. Right after I’m done, I heard someone knocking. Magko cologne pa sana ako pero naisip ko baka mahalata nya na pinaghandaan ko ang pagdating nya. I went out of the room and opened the main door. Nakangiti pa ako. Nawala ang ngiti ko nang makita ko kung sino ang bisita.
Chezka: Hi baby!
Itutuloy . . .