Parang tumigil ang mundo ko nang mabasa ko ang notification kung kanino galing. Literal na huminto ata ang puso ko. Exaggerated? OA? Two words at one liner nataranta nako kung sasagutin ko ba o hindi.
It has been months since the last time Manny and I communicated. i blocked him from my social media account. I just unblocked him recently. But I remember the last convo we had when he was in his Mindanao.
“i miss you.” It has been hours since it was sent. Awww. I wasn’t able to catch him. Offline na siya. But then I sent him
“i miss you too!”
“miss mo ko?” he replied. Uy nag online saya ko.
“siyempre naman” said I.
“tangina miss mo asawa nya to!” was the response.
I was flabbergasted! My world suddenly whirled and I felt like vomiting. All I could say was “i’m sorry. Hindi ko alam.”
Wala ng response at hindi na rin ako nagtanong. I felt the seething anger of that woman. And I can only understand her feeling. I have no plans of getting involved with a married man or someone who is in a relationship. Ayoko manakit ng kapwa ko babae sa ganyan paraan. Babae rin ako alam ko paano masaktan at paano nakakasuklam ang mga babae na knowingly pumapatol sa may-asawa o kalive-in. wtf! At ako pala ang babaeng yon. Tbh hindi ko naisip na mapupunta ako sa ganitong sitwasyon. Tang ina talaga. Ang tanga ko. Hindi ako nag isip ng kung anupaman when he was so busy when got back to his place. Sabi ko pa nga “sobrang busy ba sa family bonding?” ang sagot ni Manny “oo hehehe.” Akala ko naman sa tatay at nanay nya dahil ilang buwan siyang nasa Manila for training. At syempre holy week baka naman nag iikot sa simbahan o kaya may mga obligations etc.
So I was in state of shock for a few days. Pero kahit ganun bakit hindi ko maisumpa ang kups… I was kind of depressed, sad, broken, forlorn, devastated…
Isa lang sinabihan ko kasi dba we don’t announce our katangahan to the world. Kay Philip ko nasabi. Si Philip na panay ang flirt sakin sa phone at sa social media. Nangungulit ng meet up at sex… Sabi ko sa kanya “ang landi landi mo may asawa ka naman” which he said “uy single talaga ko punta ka pa rito sa bahay ko sa QC.”
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