My concern is my son. Smart naman siya at understanding sa situation namin. So no problem kung once in while makita yung dad niya. My son also met his half-siblings so overall, no problem sa naman life namin considering the situation. But like any young men, nandun na yung friends, inom, crushes, maybe girlfriend. Since there is no dad who is around, I have to deal with my son in pretty much everything. Dahil sa sariling kong multo, na-paparanoid din ako na baka siya ay makabuntis din ng maaga. So, I kept on nagging him about not having a serious gf yet, to the extent na because of my fear, sabi ko na please practice safe sex. My son listens to me naman, but he doesn’t give me any feedback, so dun lalo ako natatakot. Sa isip ko, ano ba? Agree ba sya or baka meron na din syang nakakasex. Coed sa schools niya and I have seen her friends (male and female) at I know magaganda yung iba nyang friends. He “hang outs” with some girls minsan but, never niyang nagmention na gf nya or crush niya. Kaya another concern for me ay yung nagsesekereto siya. Kaya one time, sa dining room kami, at I tried not to sound very serious sabi ko na OK lang na mag girlfriend ka so if you need to buy protection like condom sabi ko, I’ll get you (pero syempre sa isip ko, he could easily buy condoms naman).
He assured me, though medyu uncomfortable siya sa topic na, hindi naman siya nakikipagsex, pero hindi din siya nagdeny nung asked ku if gf nya yung laging kasama niya recently. Ngiti lang ang mokong. Well, about me naman, no other relationship other than his dad. Ayaw ku na maging mas complicated pa ang life namin. Maybe kung wala kaming anak ni Mr. F, baka I will have another BF. Kase mistress lang naman ako ni Mr. F. Kung hindi ako exclusive sa life nya, bakit ko gagawin na siya lang sa life ko, diba. Para fair naman. Pero dahil nga may anak kami, wait ko na lang siya kapag nagvivisit dito para…alam nyu na. Pero there was a time, which meron explanation naman, na medyu matagal ang absence ni Mr. F. He was honest naman. May family vacation siya (with his original family), busy sa business, etc. I appreciate naman kasi halos everyday naman siyang tumatawag. I know I could not demand any more time than he could possibly give. Alam ku naman ang lugar ko. Besides, he’s been providing for me and our son a comfortable life. Oo, babaero pero responsible naman.
Since Mr. F rarely visited me during those times, I had to satisfy myself alone. I don’t really like to masturbate cause I feel na somehow may parang nanood, kahit ako lang mag-isa sa bahay, or sa room ko. It’s a weird thinking pero of course, after a while, I masturbate routinely. Once nasa abroad, some country nearby lang naman, I bought a dildo at yun ang ginagamit ko. Less stress sa wrist at better to control and reach multiple orgasms. One weekend, after a very stressful week, pagdating ko sa bahay wala ang son ko. He texted sabi niya he’s with his friends. Anyway, since it was Friday at pag weekends, I let himstay out a little late. Wala naman school kinabukasan, so pag Friday medyu nakakalibre siya. I still set a limit, sabi ko naman wag syang abutan ng umaga or Saturday morning (or Sunday morning kung lalabas sya ng Saturday night). He’s been good naman, and I trust him, so ang pinakalate nyang dating ay almost 2am na. kasi inaabanan ko talaga siya at hindi din ako makatulog kapag wala pa siya sa house. Maski may keys sya, wait ko pa din at ako ang nagbubukas ng front door kapag narinig ku na yung gate. Maingay kasi yung latch sa gate kailangan ipihit-pihit para mabuksan.
So one weekend, after magtext ng son ko na may lakad siya, I realized that I will be home alone for a while. Solo ko ang bahay. Our kasambahay goes home every weekend, balik niya Sunday night or Monday morning. I like it that way kasi weekends ko lang na-eenjoy gumawa ng mga household chores, preparing meals sa anak ko at yung maenjoy yung house na ako or kami lang ng son ko. Tahimik kung baga. I have good relationship with our helper pero hindi ako yung tipong makikipag-usap sa kanila, yung magluluto or maglinis na kasama ang helper. Gusto ko kasi kapag may ginagawa ako sa bahay, yung ako lang. walang nakaharang at mikiki-alam sa ginagawa ko. Kaya ayun, I was alone, and my son will not be home until later so it was my “me” time.
I had a light dinner to fill my stomach. I don’t want to drink na gutom. So after my dinner, I filled the bathtub. I lighted some candles, heated some scented oil, and had wine while having a long warm bath. I finished my bath pero hindi ko pa naubos yung bottle of wine so after an hour sa bathtub, tayo na ako. I just put on my silk robe sat on my bed with a towel still wrapped in my head. I watched some movies and finished the bottle of wine. I was tipsy and felt really horny too so I started touching myself. I played with my clit and pinched my nipples hanggang sa magorgasm ako. Nilabasan ako 3 to 4 times. I rested for a while, then opened another bottle of wine, pero this time isang glass na lang since ayaw kung makatulog ng tuluyan since wala pa ang anak ko. He texted a while ago, telling me that he’ll be home around 11:30 pm, kaya I thought that he’ll be home very soon since 11 pm na. I managed to finish my glass of wine pero still horny pa din. So I touched myself again and had a couple orgasms. I knew I was not done…